¡Hola! Ya' boy Josue here...

I'm here to give a little reflexion of this year 2025, about my life, about personal things and about my mental health...

My mental health, it's been good, we are talking about a person that, two years ago, in the bottom, like-- rock bottom, about to just plug the trigger and stuff.

This year has been lonely, not gonna lie, i have been out of my house more often that previous years, but it feels lonely, it feels lonely walk and see a group of friends, it feels lonely to see a couple, it feels lonely to see family share in a restaurant... Wait, why do i feel this way? The mind it's so... blind. I have all of that things, well, except from friends and couple, but! I have family, i have a awesome family that support me in everything, i was blind, my mind was blind, the things are in front of you, but you can't see them because your mind prefers to focus on the bad things instead of the good ones... But, of course, there's something that has gone wrong this year.

Friends. I lost two important of my friends, two persons that i was starting to gain real confidence, that i was just this little to start seeing them like real friends, but... They just left me behind, and the reason behind was that they prefer to be with their partner. Let me tell you something, it's not wrong that you have a girlfriend or boyfriend, it's good! And, God, the euphoria of it it's just right enough to make you blind, but you have to realize that your friends exist too! But these two people couldn't realize that, they were so focus on their relationships, that left me behind giving simple excuses, that i could prove that were that, just excuses. I wait and wait... Two years of waiting? Nah man, i just gotta let go at that point.

But i didn't lost it all, because i have this little fish, not so far away from me, that always support me (even if he says i'm a weirdo for making bots), it's this person that's always for you, like the best duo on your favorite anime, the person that tells you how bad it's your behavior on certain things, the person that always wait for you, the person that it's always watching and supporting you to be better. Yeah, i'm talking about ####... Oh wait, he doesn't use this site, neither i can say his name, so LMAO.

Life it's hard asf, not gonna lie to you, it's bullshit, it takes away the things you adore in a blink, it have things that you want but you could never have, it's like that, you can't change it and because of that i keep living, because i like challenges, because i like confronting everything on my environment (with limits of course). Every morning doesn't have to be bad, start it by making up your bed, and then, prepare to give your most incredible fight, just for the night arrives, so you could cry, or give up, or jerk off idk, but you have to expect for the next day to arrive with a soft smile, because jumping out of that window isn't going to give you want you what, it's just going to make other people suffer... And i know how that feels.

Perhaps this is a goodbye, perhaps no. I can't tell, my projects for the next year are so big and ambitious that i don't know if i could hold this Janitor Ai life, but i expect a lot from you, and you too bot creator that has inspired me to just do my shit without giving a damn of the commentaries.

Bye-bye.