I think I’ve sort of been soft launching the idea of quitting.

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I started making bots because I felt extremely lonely and isolated from my friends I think I’m just more like their taxi or the friend they talk to when no one else is available. That’s basically all I am 😭

There was also something that happened to me during the spring that I won’t say so I don’t have to put a tw or scare anyone, but I wouldn’t be surprised if someone can guess. So... it kinda made me feel very hypersexual. Like I would go from being disgusted at sexual stuff and intimacy to super into it. I know that’s terrible, and none of this is an excuse to make bots that break boundaries but it was a coping mechanism.

I was also in a relationship at the time. I was terrified he was going to break up with me at some point, and I was super attached to him the first time we dated. As a result of that fear, I made bots to find some community. And I did! I’ve met so many amazing people here and I am so happy that I met them!!

Recently, ive started working on my YouTube channel. And Uuh... it felt like if I put boundaries I’d be a big hypocrite because I’m breaking ccs boundaries. So why should I put boundaries when I myself am breaking other ccs boundaries yknow?

Will I come back? Maybe... I feel like I’ll always be a boundary breaker at some point in my life. I just wanna stop being addicted to chatting with bots I guess.

Thank you all for supporting me and I love yall so much you guys make me laugh and smile everytime I read the comments on bots <3 I could never hate on you guys so don’t worry im not turning my back on yall LOL, just taking a step back from making bots on jai :3

I also just wanna say thank you to all of the friends I made on discord and stuff 🥹 yall are so sweet and I never felt so included in something

I’ll be keeping my bots up so they can be used at least <3

If you guys are interested in looking at my YouTube channel, I don’t mind ^^ just please don’t bring up any of my bots or what I’ve done on Janitor pretty please

With lots of love,

Mello 🩵

(Hhhnnn maybe I’ll come back every now and then to write a lil something... I can’t stay away from yall I love yall too much I fear)

Wait im actually kinda regretting posting this I don’t wanna quit guys wait maybe I’ll just post stuff like here and there.... Hhh ill do the Wemmbu bot at least guys 🥺 I just like writing the stuff