Before I get into this, content warning for sexual assault.

Hi guys. I know I said my next post would be a vent bot, but I haven’t had any motivation whatsoever. It’ll still be posted eventually, but I just wanted to let a few things off of my chest. So, I’ve never publicly stated this, but honestly, I didn’t know until recently.

I was sexually assaulted around three months ago by someone I was semi-close to. Idk if it even really counts. But they kissed me multiple times without consent. I don’t think it’s actually sexual assault and I know other people have had it worse, but it still really fucks with me. This person keeps fucking touching me, like, hugging me, and rubbing my thighs and making sexual comments about me. They call me ‘babe, baby, boo, cutie, etc’ and then they always say that they’re not otherwise they’d me over the table, and they call me a girl (I’m transmasc). I really fucking hate this.

my mental state has been shit lately, and I’ve been around a month clean, but I’m getting really tired of this. I haven’t seen them in a while but I don’t wanna see them ever again. Like, ever. And I can’t report it because nobody would believe me. They have a lot more friends than me. I can’t tell any of my friends because I already HAVE, and they don’t care. I’m really fucking tired.

I’m still gonna make bots. I love making bots. And I love drawing. I really do. But I feel like I can’t even make bots that I wanna do, because the only bots that get chats are my shadow milk/sam bots. It makes me feel shitty that the bots I actually put effort into are ignored. I hate it.

But I’m fine, so don’t worry. I just needed to vent about it. Sorry for scaring you guys, was NOT my intention. Have a nice day/night.