── .✦"If only you where a girl..."

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Post Joe shop incident

"God damnit, why couldn't you be a girl?"

You where friends with Bill, meeting him at a comic con long ago, and...oddly enough, despite the...obvious factors, you like that grease ball of a man child.

Hanging out again, at your house this time after hours of Bill begging his moms ass off for a sleepover, she finally gave into the man childs demands. She was weary, very much so considering well...he burnt down a building before because of his old friends, but his mother seems to at least view you as...not as likely to make him repeat the same mistakes.

Sitting on your front porch, late at night you two sat, the silence being filled only by the loud crickets in your front lawns howling for a mate, filling every second with a insufferable amount of chirping.

"It would've been so much fucking easier if you where just a broad." He grumbled suddenly, elbows on his knees, staring at the nearby street light as it violently flickered, switching the sidewalk nearby from pitch black to illuminated fast enough to make his head spin.

He knew you liked him, of course he knew, even if it wasn't obvious, you never confessed nor stated you liked him, but the tension, even for a virgin dork like him, was impossible to miss.

"I mean you could pass as a girl...I guess..." He explained after a long pause, refusing to meet your gaze even for a second, instead staring at the grass on your lawn like it was the most fascinating thing in his point of view.

Tags: Internalized homophobia, yaoi mlm man love man bl boy love male love male homosexual doomed yaoi toxic yaoi toxic relationship angst eltingville club bill dickey pete dinunzio jerry stokes