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Hey everyone. I haven't been posting bots as you can see for a pretty long time.

For like, a year or something!?

"Where was I all this time?"

Well, I don't exactly know what to write on here. My mental health is getting worse everyday. This year has been really horrible.

This was starting with my grades, I remember I went to the school council, and soon, I ended up telling everything. (About my past). She demanded I talked about it with my mother (ik, I still live with my mother). I begged her not to, but at the end, we still did it.

After she found out everything, she acted like someone caring around the council, but when we went home for the day, she completely yelled at me, she tried to manipulate me into thinking I was lazy and not depressed, and this really took a toll on my health.

I also have been struggling with my physical health too. A few months ago, I was having really bad bad problems with my menstrual cycle, and while I was getting ready to go to college, i fainted out of the blue. I woke up in the hospital and I had to get an operation since my head basically snapped open when I hit the ground. And since I couldn't go to college for a few weeks, my depression really started to kick in.

After I healed, my mother realised her mistakes, I was losing the will to eat and really just start moving around the house, and she finally brought me to a therapist. She really helped me out and I am slowly getting better.

I am still having massive problems with my menstrual cycle and i do have regular doctor visits. But that's really about it.

I have been struggling with school for now, but I am getting help and I am healing.

I might not post on here for another while, but I promise, I'll try to get motivated to post. I've been taking a break from social media and I've been getting into astronomy. It's just a hobby that makes me feel calm, and not anxious.

Thank you so much for all the support everyone's been giving me. I love you all so much!

—Sakura

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