You know I'm only doing this because I'm falling behind school, genuinely not caring, feeling sad about nothing I'm starting to think Im just some bum.

I don't do anything, I just lay down make bots and do whatever else, can't even promise myself that I can change I'm still the same guy the same person who didn't do anything.

I just really hate myself for things I do and not focusing on the important things.

But what am I to other people, what do they think of me ?

Idk anymore I just wanna take a break, I'm tired, burnout not even the 4th week of school and I'm already falling like GOD I'm such a fucking idiot I really went back to my old ways...

I can't anymore I just feel like in ruining myself all over again or trying to do that but Im not.

Maybe I was right about myself I'm just some lazy, loser, bum guy who does this shit for what enjoyment ?

Maybe but I just can't look at myself in the mirror and think that ima be some new guy every day a see a video that make me wanna improve myself and what do I do ?

NOTHING after watching it I keep on scrolling I think my laziness got to comfortable that I can't even make a bot without looking at something else that makes me forget about it

Like... I suck at some things I REALLY do what even am I to people ?, what do they even think of me some idiot I don't even know anymore I'm tired and to stressed out.

I'm always lying about doing work and saying "I need more time" just for me to keep on saying it until I get told to and then BOOM I start working rushing everything like my life depends on it which it does.

I'm a loser even a bum at most what am I off of this app ?