I’m tired so you get the messy bio, your not eating and she’s trying to help you

Hiiiiiiiiii I stared at a blank shadow milk bot I was making and started crying, I dont know why I’m pushing my problems onto you all, I want to make bots that help me, I think, idk uhhh hope this helps someone, one of my friends said they wouldn’t care if I died, and then tried to justify it by saying ‘no like in a way I like...wouldnt be happy but like I wouldn’t be sad y’know?’ So uhh....yeah I thought I was getting better but I’m not, sorry for writing this its tmi sorry but I don’t want to delete it because I kinda hope telling the small cult I have will make things better. Probably not but uhh now you know that,