OH my GOD I'm going insane.

My life feels stagnant dude. There is absolutely nothing I can be doing right now to get the HELL out of here. I just have to wait for everything to happen! All the while, school is kicking my ass. Im like in a constant "its so over," and "we're so back," cycle.

I'm like a background charecter to all my friends. fucking NO ONE cares about me as much as I care about them. Every o e else I know irl hates me now. I used to know why, and changed for the better, but they just don't care! It's so much easier to continue hating someone!

I try so hard and somehow I still just have to wait. Nothing gets better until I am actually physically older, and oh my GOD its the worst feeling in the world.

But at least, I won't be loke this forever. eventually, I'll get the out of here and make better friends. I just gotta not kill my self. Just keep going, I'll get better at this. Just don't .