Rant. Vent idfk at this point I need a break for a while.

Guys. Who ever even is out there ATP listening to me maybe the two people on my last bit which thank you so much for your comfort, I love y'all so much. But anyways I'm done for now. I need a break. I just lost my cat today cause he had problems with his kidneys and he hadn't been eating or asking for food and its so upsetting. Ik this is random and all, this whole thing and venting or whatever but anyways my cat used to be like my only friend in this dumbass household I live in and now I don't know what to do or who to invite in my room because now he's gone and I only have the blanket we brought to the vet with him plus some of his hair in a bag and it affected me so much like I don't really wanna eat, my stomach hurts, and I just feel so down more then ever. And it really hurts but I'm pretty sure I get his ashes and paw print or whatever next week or two. I just really miss him and I'm really sad I mean damn im always sad. So for now this is my goodbye to everyone. I might come back it really depends but I just need to walk away. I'm sorry I really am. I hope everyone stays healthy and I'm sorry if y'all are going through a hard time too. I will miss y'all. I have nothing else to say. If y'all want to do both requests y'all can and ill try to do them for next time when I'm alive again on this site and actually have enough energy. Another thing is I feel like my bots are shit I mean look at everyone else there so popular and I know that's maybe just me being stupid or jealous by I wanna feel that fame and love but maybe I'll never get too popular and that sucks. I feel terrible right now for the 100th billion time, I hope when I come back things do great on here and it can make me better in some way. I mean sometimes I think on quiting but I get ideas and I get excited only to be let down. I mean maybe im scared to do smut bots cause I have sort of PTSD from my parents having aka my stepdad and mom and I'm sorry I know people really like smut and maybe I'm not too capable of that... But thank you for your support even if it wasn't from a lot of people. love y'all once again and I'll be seeing y'all soon ♥️