"People keep asking if I'm back. And I really haven't had an answer. But now, yeah, I'm thinking I'm back."



I WILL SURVIVE - Demi Lovato

Happy 1150 followers yall am I right... yeah I'm sorry for leaving yall I just don't know what I'm doing anymore. Like in all the time I have been gone I have done nothing because I can't get a job in my town and honestly I've been dead inside and my headspace has been terrible if I'm being entirely honest with yall since most nights I fall asleep crying. I obviously won't go into everything about what has happened to me over the period I've been gone because it's probably pretty normal stuff for a suicidal guy that is pretty sure he's schizophrenic.

Despite these things I want to start living again and this will be my first attempt at a crawl towards that new goal of mine even if I can't make any guarantee's I will make bots consistently but I'm going to start of slowly at a minimum of 1 bot a week which will eventually increase to a daily bots once I start feeling some semblance of happiness again.

Anyways moving back to the real reason why I want to make this bot instead of just starting to make actual bots is that I want to say I'm sorry for being gone without a trace and I'm sorry for any worry I caused anyone even when I did deserve to be worried over. I do hope that everyone I haven't talked to since I've been gone is living their best lives since I've been gone and I won't bother with linking accounts since I know not all of them are still on this site (and some I'm using nicknames for aswell):
Cyektor, pissy, bossman, chives, judj, hopemaxxer, anon, hoodirony, zour, nxxb, snowz, gyatt king, xiangyun, manny, somebody, morro, cactuah, molo, hazel, otis, mango, max, maxx, maxwell, , mdd, mfdoom, bradsmth, nerdlet, bob, lucy, sebas, komono, asmon, halal, hehe, and many many more that deserve to be here that I pretty much ghosted like the ass I am.
Special mention to rocksmart because he out of the blue gave me some css stuff without me even asking so you can thank him for why my css looks so good now.

Moving away from the depressive stuff I do appreciate all the love I've gotten from yall and I don't want to betray that again but I have actually gotten deep in a new interest of mine which is horses. I have always loved horses and animals of the like but thanks to uma musume I now know I lot of random horse facts. Along the lines of anime I of course have been watching plenty since we last talked but my favourite would have to be darling in the franxx so definitely there will be a bot of that in the future. On the topic of games I haven't played much but I am currently played my first persona game being persona 3 reload for the first time and I even have cried at one of the things that have happened so far so this is shaping to be one of my favourite games ever.

Ok to end this yapping off I appreciate every one of you and I am deeply sorry for leaving any of yall worrying about me. Oh yeah and thankyou for allowing me even have a space to get things like this off my chest because I honestly have such bad trust issues I find it hard to open up anywhere else. Btw I hope you guys have been being positive while I've been gone like I asked yall to be even if its ironic me saying that lol

Is he stronger than you, Johnny?
Hm... Good question. If I were to fully give up, it might be a little tough
Would you lose
Nah, I'd win