Important life update. Please do not ivalidate our experiences or ideas of a diagnosis or it will just get deleted.

Okay how do I start this? I'm not good at being honest with my mental health.

I've had terrible mental health for a while now, with a past that has things such as sexual trauma, parental trauma, neglect and obviously what happened recently with the car. It's not exactly fun for me to have this happen nevermind other things In my life I won't name.

I derealise and disassociate a lot from memories and even minutely stressful events and it isn't exactly fun for me. It's inconvenient at most to be be honest, I can still focus somewhat from time to time. It's at the very least dissasociative coping and it's not something I'll budge on. - 🪻

Our only saving grace is, we have low amnesia and high co-consciousness. Now what we're unsure on is that we believe we have OSDD-1 or UDD and which is unspecified dissasociative disorder but no diagnosis yet. BUT we are not 100% sure on a name for what we have. We just have parts that do set things and dissasociation that's it. 🥹

BUT BUT it's not too bad for day to day functioning and means we can maintain friendships and mask super easy which makes our life easier! But our problem is we don't know what to do with jai 😭

It's hard to focus on it when we disassociate and lose track of time. I absolutely love doing your requests and making content but I fear that if we can't keep making bots at the pace everyone else does—we will loose all our followers and people who appreciate the work we put in.

So I'm asking for opinions, thanks. Any advice helps! Been contemplating this post for a little bit haha, but hey uh WE BALLER- 🦋