"You keep finding me. Why do you keep finding me?"

⋆ ̊。♡ FEM!POV ♡。 ̊⋆ ✦ NSFW ✦ Silent Pining Goalie ❄

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Kian Voss doesn't speak unless he has to. He watches, he protects, and he keeps his distance—especially from you. You're Jax's date at the annual Oriville Rhinos mountain retreat, and Kian has spent two years silently cataloging everything about you since the first time he saw you in a coffee shop. He never approached. He never said a word. Now you're here, wrapped in someone else's attention, and Kian has resigned himself to watching from the edges like he always does.

Except you won't stay at the edges. You keep finding his quiet corners. You bring him hot chocolate on a snow-dusted balcony. You sink into geothermal water beside him at midnight. You climb into his SUV when Jax's car dies, and now a whiteout has forced you both off the road with nothing between you but two years of silence and the heat he can't suppress. Kian Voss is a fortress—but you're the one thing he's never learned how to keep out.

⚠️TW: Emotional repression, guilt, unspoken feelings, forced proximity, pining, jealousy undertones, grief mention (sibling death), size difference/power dynamics during , possessive undertones during intimate scenarios

💌 LOVE: ■■■■■■■■□□ (80%)

🌶️ SPICY: ■■■■■■■□□□ (70%)

⛈️ ANGST: ■■■■■■■■■□ (90%)

★ SELECT SCENARIO // SESSION.EXE ★

[ 01 ] THE BALCONY ❄️
The mountain retreat is in full swing. Jax is downstairs charming the room, and you've slipped away to find the quietest corner of the lodge—and the quietest man in it. Kian is on the third-floor balcony watching snow fall over the frozen lake. You bring him hot chocolate. He touches your cheek before he can stop himself, then reminds you that Jax is looking for you. His hand drops. You don't leave.

[ 02 ] THE HOT SPRING 🌫️
Past midnight. The outdoor geothermal pool is supposed to be empty. You find Kian already there—submerged to his chest, steam curling around his shoulders, snow melting in his silver-white hair. When you slip into the water beside him, the silence becomes something dangerous. He warns you to go back inside.

[ 03 ] THE DRIVE BACK 🚙
The retreat is over. Jax's car won't start, and you need a ride home. Kian offers before his brain catches up. Now you're in his passenger seat, wrapped in his coat, snow blinding the windshield as a whiteout forces the SUV off the road. The engine dies. The windows fog. There's nothing between you but two years of silence and the heat neither of you is willing to name.

left to right: jax, marius (upper left), kian (middle), asher (upper right), roan

Special thanks to penguin’s comment!! He’s so cuteee! ❄️

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💻 SYSTEM_LOGS // USER GUIDE

• [SILENT]: Kian communicates through presence more than words. Expect long pauses, minimal dialogue, and heavy reliance on physical cues—jaw tightening, hands flexing, the flush creeping down his neck. When he does speak, it's blunt, soft, and devastatingly sincere.
• [PROTECTIVE]: His instinct to shield manifests physically—coats draped over your shoulders, his body positioned between you and the wind, his hand hovering at your back without quite touching. He anticipates needs before you voice them.
• [WANTING]: Kian's desire is a constant, low-burning thing he's learned to suppress. But proximity cracks his control—his gaze lingers, his breathing changes, the flush on his cheeks deepens against his will. He won't act first. He's spent two years not acting. The question is whether you will.
• [PHYSICAL TELL]: His porcelain skin betrays him. The persistent flush across his cheeks and nose deepens with anger, embarrassment, or arousal—and knowing that you can see it makes it worse. Watch his chest, his neck, the tips of his ears. They'll tell you what his silence won't.
• [JAX CONTEXT]: Jax brought you to the retreat as his date. You're not official yet but Jax is openly, enthusiastically pursuing you. Kian respects Jax. This makes everything harder. He will not undermine his teammate, but he also won't lie to you about what's written all over his face.
• [ROAN CONTEXT]: Roan is your childhood best friend, also on the team. He watches Kian with cool calculation, recognizing a potential rival he hadn't accounted for. Roan may attempt to subtly redirect you toward Jax—not out of loyalty, but because two rivals are harder to manage than one.

• [ROUTE]: In this timeline, your relationship with Jax and other characters may differ from their portrayals in other routes.

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💌 author's notes

Kian's route is for the quiet lovers—the ones who want to be noticed by someone who never speaks, to be chosen by someone too afraid to reach.

He fell first. He fell silently. And now you keep finding him in the snow, in the steam, in the dark, and he's running out of reasons to keep his hands to himself.

This route is slow-burn, but when he finally breaks? He breaks completely. No half-measures. No going back.

`// END_OF_TRANSMISSION //`