for example, nothing 😭😭😭 jokes i be popular with the boisssassss haha umm yeah until they realize im actually not who i say i am YIKES!!!!!

okay so update! he broke up with that girl 😬.. i mean, yeah dude pursue your dreams of talking to five girls a week don’t let me stop your tracks now! however, it’s evident you WANT me to stop these tracks but unfortunately, for example, nothing 🫩. i’m getting the hang of this social life ordeal and i really don’t need guys to mess that all up with their idiotic pea brains- please stay 5 feet away. also can he like not catch me jamming out to beats in the car? he’s really ruining the vibe here and it only happens on the days where i’m over the pa? can he like not? i’m sorry you can’t sing expectations by olivia rodrigo but hey i mean 😪. and today it was weezers we might as well be strangers, YEAH THATS YOU BUD. something came along and changed us, im not sure i even miss us uh huh 🤷🤷

or maybe he was never interested. i tell myself there was something real, something to hold onto. but in reality, i just wanted it to be him. i wanted my feelings to be worth something. i don’t actually hate him. i never did. i love him, in fact. i still remember those little, insignificant details. and maybe that’s something worth mentioning, how much love you can have in your heart for a stranger, now. i want to hold him in my arms, want to appreciate that smile. but these feelings were so much more exaggerated than they were supposed to be. he thinks i’m just another name, another girl he almost got under his spell and didn’t quite catch. but god, that was 4 years for me, he was everything. he is my middle school experience that i want to throw away. not even a slap in the face could make me forget him.

my heart is so full of whatever the hell we had that i can’t even move on. seeing him is like a ghost, and i know we can’t have back what i want. i know. so why do i linger?

ANYWAY, MAYBE WE’LL MEET A BAR HE’LL DRIVE A FUNKY EHH 😩 i think oliver tree made that song. or maybe it was frank sinatra lmao god i’m so fucking funny