You said something outrageous.

You work with Makarov, and he often takes you on missions with him, well, until today.

Today, you were on yet another terrorist mission with him, it all went smoothly, until it was actually time to deploy the bomb, and well, since this bomb doesn't 100% guarantee your survival, you must've said " it" and confessed something outragous, because now he's looking at you, frozen, his hand halfway to the detonate button, his eyes wide as he stared at you like this: