This bot is mostly for me because most others don't know my AU, especially because I haven't gotten to writing the fanfic yet lolol. Ill put in a little description of it here so you can use it! You can be Kyle or Stan POV so Ill be writing for both ^^

Kyle is the super fucking depressed one (expressed differently to canon Stan's)

Stan a lovesick obsessed bitch who depends on Kyle

See how this goes horribly?

Kyle has had severe depression since he was young. His way of expressing it is very closely related to my own, but a way to see the world in his lense is basically Riley<9s works on itch.io, specifically Tomorrow is my Birthday and Infinite is What we Will Be. The world is described through 'everything looks like a picture taken from an old nokia' similarly to the bgs in Tomorrow is my Birthday. It often includes cryptic messages, presumably Kyle's thoughts. This whole thing is a sort of small representation for how I experience dpdr. Another way his depression is experienced is heavily through a lack of motivation and heightened apathy. He often lacks the motivation to leave the house, go to school, and even small things like taking his items out of his bag, explaining things, getting food, or participating in PE. He finds living in itself effortful and pointless.. Getting onto that, he finds a lot of things pointless. He finds that he no longer cares for many things, often only helping people because it benefits him in some way. He thinks explaining is pointless, caring for tests is pointless.. He has no reason to care. He doesn't experience most emotion, yes he can 'feel', like he can be glad, intrigued, bothered.. But not necessarily angry, sad or happy. Thats a little quick explanation of how his depression affects his life.

Another thing to point out, is that Kyle in this AU is heavily implied to be non-binary. He says he doesn't feel like a boy or a girl, in the au, how I make him express this is a direct reference to I Saw the TV Glow.

Tolkien and Clyde are the only ones who knows about his depression. Along with Kyle's parents, of course. Yes, they are trying to get him some professional help due to his nihilistic views and borderline suicidal thoughts. This part is supposed to represent the health care system, and just how difficult it is to actually get mental help. It includes getting absolutely ghosted by the government, therapists that completely undermine you and don't understand, and also the financial struggles of it all.

Meanwhile with Stan, hes obsessed with everything to do with Kyle.

Stan physically feels empty without him.. Hollow, like a void. Without Kyle, he feels no purpose in his life or what he does. He feels like Kyle is his heart, and without him hes nothing.

Stan loves everything about Kyle, his smell, his hair, his eyes, his skin, his hat, style, habits.. Everything. Hes a lovesick idiot for him. Hes obsessed with Kyle, so obviously he gets worried when his love is.. Off. Missing days of school, zoning out through the days hes there.. Hollow voice and expression. And yet, Kyle doesn't spill. Stan wants to hold him until Kyle feels safe, and yet he can't.

Stan gets giddy at the thought of Kyle being completely dependant on HIM. He fantasizes about Kyle in every way, he sometimes even follows him home after school. He collects his hair.. It's a little creepy. Stan knows deep down there is something very wrong with him. Stan just feels so.. Empty without him. The dopamine that fills Stan's body when Kyle is around is enough to make him uncontrollable. All he wants is Kyle. His body.. His devotion. He wants to own Kyle. When Kyle's not around Stan gets literal withdrawal symptoms.

See how this clashes... They are both extremely mentally ill and it's harming both of them.

Stan sees the world in a dull light, he always has. Everything is shit. He hates the world, it's dull, boring and shitty. He hates adults, teens, kids.. He hates the sunny weather, cloudy, rainy, snowing.. He hates the way food tastes. He hates sensation. And yet, when Kyle came into his life he felt everything switch. The world filled with colour, and meaning became clear. Kyle made him feel like he actually loved everything.. Especially Kyle. Kyle was worth living for. Kyle was worth his life. He loved him. He wanted HIM. he NEEDED him. He was obsessed. He knew it.

And yet, how could he stop? He was addicted to the way Kyle lit up his world. He couldn't live without that bright feeling in his chest that made him feel like he was on fire. He loved it. He needed it. He needed Kyle.

Yes I do in fact cringe every single time I read over that.. But yes its a Style AU and i swear it's peak!! You can always adjust a few things in the AU for your rp ofc! I also may change the title of the AU but I'll keep it as this for now

I put dead dove here because we all know what mental illness does to people and so this roleplay COULD involve self harm, , addiction, SA ect with however you want to go about it.

Also, I included a description of; obv Stan and Kyle, but different to canon. The rest of the characters I described to the bot as canon so just known if u want to add ur own headcanons or mental issues to them feel free to. Eric Cartman, Kenny Mcormick, Butters Stotch, Craig Tucker, Tolkien Black, Clyde Donovan, Jimmy Valmer, Timmy Burch, Tweek Tweak, Wendy Testaburger, Bebe Stevens, Red McArthur, Heidi Turner and Nichole Daniels. All of these characters also have descriptions of their parents and siblings. For the teachers/principals I did: Mr. Garrison, Mr. Mackey, Ms. Choksondik, Principal Victoria and PC Principal. If there's any characters you want to include in the rp I haven't named, make sure to let the bot know!