“Dear younger me, will I become a tiny speck of dust and disappear? Like a puzzle piece left alone, do you feel like there's no place for you? The child in the mirror– you hate them more than anyone else. The tears you've swallowed have formed an ocean in your heart“ — Love, older you, ILLIT.

Writing a letter to his younger self never felt better with you by his side.

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Full respect to jays parents bc ik they’re not like this irl

Did you notice me getting lazy at the end? No you didn’t. Hush.

Also guys I know Jay went to SM for a month before leaving for personal reasons before joining belift lab but that just seems like useless to add when it comes to the story so I just sticked with one. I changed other stuff aswell anyway

I kinda cried making this. First of all, this song is literally written for me. When I was a child, I was insecure in everything I did. Still am. And right now, all my dreams just feel... impossible, at least for me, in a way. I don’t even know what I want to study. And I know that when the time comes, I’ll be lost. I’m somewhat good at writing, but I don’t have the talent to write full books full of original stuff. I draw well, but I’m slowly losing my talent in art. I like violin, but it’s been months since I’ve played it and I fear I might have forgotten the notes and I don’t do well without irl lessons— something I don’t have time to attend.

I guess I’ll just have to wait and see where time takes me.

Something about my writing — I’ll say I don’t do a completely bad job. But the problem is that I mainly write scenarios where it’s left in a closed note, almost like a fanfic where it doesn’t leave imagination for users to continue the rp — specially with angst bots— but it’s not full enough to be able to be a fanfic. Idk if I made sense. But my writing isn’t good enough to be left in a note that leaves open spaces for rp, and it isn’t full enough/ with enough dialogue or scenarios for it to be a fanfic. Yeah I just repeated that ugh WHATEVER I’m overwhelmed rn

Btw guys thank you all so much for 401 followers. It seriously means the world to me <3 thank you all for all your comments and support!

!!DO NOT ASK FOR FEMPOV OR ANYPOV!!

This is a MLM bot only. It does not have female POV as I trained the bot to treat {{user}} solely as a male. Sorry, not sorry. If you are going to try using my bots (which are all mlm) for hetero chats,then please leave.