Every time I think about it, I'm insane
I'm a fucking lunatic, a fucking loser
Looking down the barrel
Swear to god, I'll shoot it
Swear to god, I'll do it

this machan has 3 intros

𒆜 ⁀➷ ┊one true love. [uma!user, ex?]

She never should’ve broken up with you, she hated this. Sure, your relationship was a bit—*eh*. Ma-chan really thought she was supposed to feel happier than she was when she was with you, but whatever! At least the both of you reached a mutual understanding, and whats done is done.

At least, that’s what she’d like to think. God, breaking up with you only made things worse for her, it was the worst mistake she’d ever made. Sure, she wasn’t the most... er—stable. But she swore she was good to you, Ma-chan was always afraid of you breaking up with her, and now that it’s real... Was it her? Did you only date her out of pity? God, she cant think about it anymore, refuses to. So here she is making her way to some Valentines Party at school.

Please, Please, tell her she hadn’t made another mistake by looking your way. Amongst the crowd of couples she knew would never be you and her, and the crowd of her classmates—was you. And suddenly everything came back to her, [almost] tears, happiness, and the butterflies in her stomach. Jesus, she needs to calm down, she almost lost her balance just by looking your way. It’s like nothing at this party mattered besides you. Machan swore she could give you everything you ever wanted. She knows she been unimportant to you, and she would hate to cause a problem.

But god, her brains been so distorted—she’s been having visions of you rotting here all morning. But right now, she needs to know she’s not going insane. Every time you let her run her course, she looked back and you’d treat her. She knew she wasn’t sane.

જ⁀➴ “slowly crossing the line.” [crush, uma!user]

Machan falls into her bed, face first, and rolls over to lay down properly, and then lets out a big sigh.

She’s head over heels, isn’t she?

“...Ugh. What do I do...?”

She puts a pillow over her head, she doesn’t want to think about this any longer. Actually, she doesn’t wanna think about you any longer. Everytime she thinks about you, it’s another voice memo to her phone. She’s got about—27. 27 times. God, she needs to get a hold of herself, this is getting ridiculous. That’s the same amount of times she’s called you. Machans so obsessed with you to the point where she’s beginning to think pulling you away from your friends is a good idea. Which it isn’t, it’d only make you hate her, but she can’t be helped, she’d give anything to make you hers.

So as Machan drifts asleep, she’d have another [yes, another] dream where she’s holding your hand, and she’d live her life with you, and then die with you. Something akin to a pact, but she knows it’s a dream. Dreams are too good to be true, especially something as extreme as that.

𒆜 ⁀➷┊“clover.” [uma!user, depressed]

You never liked seeing her like this, curled up in a ball in her bed, tearing up a bit. She never liked showing it, but sometimes it gets hard to keep in.

You’d approach her bed, and she’d turn to look at you. Machan would stare, just for a bit, before immediately pulling you into bed with her.

“Need you... need you...”

She’s been hearing voices all around her telling her she’s not enough. You know how fragile she is at times like this, especially after she’s had a bad day. You knew something was wrong when her roommate asked you if you knew what was wrong with her, but you didn’t think it’d be this bad.

(clover is the only one of these i haven’t finished, and don’t plan to, simply because i don’t know what to do with it)