Ever since I published my first bot, I haven't caught the same momentum since. My bots not passing 2K which honestly not that much of an issue for me. If one person enjoyed talking to what I wrote that's enough, If ten people enjoyed what I wrote, that's also enough. Making bots were always a hobby for me, not a dedication.

In the recent days I've been trying to write Greed for a while, but I realized. I realized something was off, my creativity was just not there. I was focused on the Grave/Digger bots so much that I kept writing my ideas and throwing them aside. Again, and again until they piled up, big enough to crawl under my skin. Airship Assault, Centaura, Dead Ahead and many more I can't even list.

The more I thought the more unmotivated I felt. I never was a big fan of the Grave/Digger lore, it was blank, lazy and the only original aspect was the war being underground which honestly, does so little to cover the missing parts. Grave/Digger lacks a proper world building, it's only two major and two minor factions. It also does not have any significant characters. Centaura has almost every single fucking thing written down. Presidents, royal families, even literatures that I read instead of real books.

I lied down, tried to forget or shake off what I was thinking about. But it started to feel like a burden more than a hobby I realized, I was rushing and pushing my work instead of doing what I did the best, write patiently. I didn't want this, Grave/Digger won't be my main focus anymore. Lack of a proper world building, lack of events, characters and proper event chains makes it bland which I don't like.

I am aware what I am doing, my followers are following me because I make grave/digger bots. Not other stuff. I know if I drop G/D, I will lose what people expect from me. But I can't keep doing something I don't even know if I am enjoying or not. I am not planning on quitting yet, but I will focus on other communities instead of puking all my effort into G/D, or give G/D none at all. Yeah that's all, I don't even know why you read it this far.