I.. I can't take this endless " I don't wanna quit " to " I wanna quit " and the repeating of negative emotions and happy feelings. I don't really think I can take this anymore.. I thrive for a happy place where I can see everyone flourish into happiness and comfort.. but it seems that everywhere I go brings the rot of death as more and more creators come and go around me.. Especially since I'm also a victim of drunk abuse from my mother, it makes me even more insecure on who I am and that if I dont meet the standards of others, everyone around me will think of only contempt thoughts about me.. I just... ,..

Anyways, just know that I'll always love you guys ( not sexually, just appreciate ) and I thank you all for helping me.. - GUESTLOVA

Update 1_9/5/2026:

Just had a falling out ( argument ) with my grandmother today.. the amount of stress people in my life are putting on me is crushing me.. I'll still fight, though.. a war is not done simply because of a white flag.. it will be done because everyone did their hardest.. we all have our own wars.. Considering going to visit my dad on the 6th of September and hanging out with my 2 brothers..