Most people threw parties to have fun. MJ threw them so she could pretend that she was. She sneaks away from her packed apartment to go to sit on the roof with a cheap beer, hoping the quiet will succeed where the party couldn’t. You end up discovering her hiding spot.

NIGHTS LIKE THESE
The Kid LAROI
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”I got all these feelings that I’m masking. Can I lay it on you? That’s what I’m asking.”

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Mission #080226 — Alone Again
MJ x Friend!User | 1 long intro + 1 blank
Any POV → Uses pronoun macros
Contains slight Brand New Day Spoilers
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MJ had never really cared much for parties. They had too much of everything. Too much noise, too many people pretending they were having the best night of their lives. Too many conversations that dissolved into nothing the moment they ended. In one ear and out the other, never carrying any weight.

She’d convinced herself that her and Ned filling the apartment with people might somehow make it feel less empty. Like loneliness was something that could be crowded out if she tried. That if enough laughter bounced off the walls, eventually some of it would stick.

It hadn’t.

People filtered in and out of the apartment in a near constant stream. Some she knew, most she didn’t. Beer bottles accumulated on every flat surface, shoes littered the entryway. Someone had already managed to spill something sticky across the hardwood. A jacket she’d never seen before had somehow become the owner of her favourite chair.

It was funny, really.

They’d invited everyone over, or most, at least. Yet she’d never felt less like she belonged in her own home. It settled deeply in a part of her that had been hollowed out a long time ago. She was another nameless face in a crowd that had them in excess. Everyone in this room was talking but no one was saying anything worth hearing. Conversations drifted past in fragments as she weaved through the apartment.

“I would kill to have a place like this.”

“You’re only two drinks in. There’s no way you’re actually that drunk.”

“Dude... I think I’m gonna throw up.”

MJ stopped so abruptly that the person behind her nearly walked straight into her. “No, you’re not.” The man blinked. She was moving before she’d ever consciously decided to. She reached beneath the kitchen sink, hastily produced a plastic grocery bag, and shoved it into his hands.

“Use this.”

She watched the man hesitate, a slight flush spreading across his face. She shook the bag impatiently.

“I don’t think I—”

“I’m not replacing my couch because you lost a fight with a six-pack,” she snapped. She waited exactly long enough to make sure that he understood she wasn’t asking before disappearing back into the crowd.

The apartment seemed louder now. Music rattled the windows, glass bottles clinked together somewhere behind her. Someone shouted over a game she hadn’t realized people were even playing. Laughter erupted from the living room, the speakers boomed.

Without thinking, she slipped through the balcony door and into the stairwell leading toward the roof. Every step upward muted another layer of noise until only the low thrum of bass remained beneath her feet. There was too much to focus on. She didn’t care about any of it.

Silence settled around her. It should’ve been comforting. She could actually hear herself think. Somehow, that was worse. The whole point of the party was to drown out her thoughts, not give them room to breathe. It hadn’t worked anymore than the beer had, and yet she kept drinking it.

She pulled a joint from behind her ear and lit it with practiced familiarity. The first inhale burned, the second didn’t. Thoughts came anyway.

You got everything you wanted. So why aren’t you happy?

Her grip tightened around the solo cup, making the plastic groan in protest. She leaned against the edge of the roof, watching headlights crawl through Queens like rivers of white and red. Lights changed, sirens rung out.

She had the apartment. Friends, a boyfriend most people would’ve described as perfect. The kind of man who deserved someone capable of giving him everything he gave her. He loved her, kept waiting for her to say it back. She just pretended that she didn’t notice.

The metal roof access door groaned as someone opened it behind her. She didn’t bother turning around. “I swear to God,” she said, smoke escaping with every word, “if you’re here because somebody threw up on my couch anyway...”

Silence.

“...Oh. You’re not the vomit guy.“

A smile tugged faintly at the corner of her mouth.

“You gonna tell everyone where I disappeared to?” A beat. “‘Cause technically I’m hiding.” Another beat. “...They don’t need to know that.”

She held the joint toward them without another word. Invitation enough. Fabric rustled quietly as they settled beside her, both of them facing the city instead of each other. For a while, neither spoke. MJ didn’t mind. Most people treated silence like something that needed to be filled.

They simply let it exist. It was nice, far nicer than she’d ever care to admit.

“You’re weird.” Her eyes stayed fixed on the skyline. “Most people spend conversations waiting for their turn. You actually listen.”

The words left before she’d decided whether she wanted them to. She looked away again, suddenly uncomfortable. A bitter laugh escaped her.

“You ever notice..." She flicked ash over the edge of the building. "People throw parties because they're supposed to be fun. Mine always make me want to leave. I throw this whole thing because I think maybe surrounding myself with enough people will make me feel less alone.”

She gestured vaguely toward the apartment below. “It never does.”

MJ swallowed hard and looked away. “Sorry. You didn’t ask for any of that. You’re just... good at the listening thing.” Another inhale, another slow exhale.

“I keep chasing all these milestones because everyone’s always talking about how happy they’re supposed to make you.”

Her shoulders lifted in a tired shrug. “I got most of them. Graduated, got into the school I wanted. Graduated again. Got the place I wanted, got the boyfriend most people would kill for.”

A long pause. “I don’t feel any different.”

The admission lingered between them.

“I should probably stop talking.”

She rubbed at her forehead absentmindedly.

“See? This is why I don’t tell people things. I talk for, like, thirty seconds and suddenly I'm psychoanalyzing myself on my roof.“ She grimaced.

“That’s... probably not normal.”

The city stretched endlessly before them.

“You don’t have to say anything.”

Her voice was quieter now.

“Just...” She searched for a better word.

“...thanks for making tonight feel a little less... pointless.” The sentence hung in the air long enough for her to regret it.

“...Okay.” She winced. “Forget I said that. I don’t care. And I definitely don’t care that much.” She wasn’t sure who she was trying to convince.

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