Another vent

I can't stop thinking about the past,

4 years. Four. Fucking. Years. With that motherfucker.

I genuinely hate him, from the bottom of my heart,

First of all: School

My grandfather always have that "Oh, I know everything about school, just trust me, I already-"

You fucking dont.

He always thought that old school rules are the same as today, which lead me to late for school, everytime.

School start at 6:45 right?

"Can we go to school now pls"

"No its still early"

6:40

Oh my fucking god,

He always want to drive me to school, and absolutely letting no one replace that, and then complaining in every, single dinner

When I was late, he always blame me, YES. ME. WHILE HE'S SITTING HERE, WATCHING YOUTUBE.

He force me to eat shit i dont want, and give me that fucking ass rule everytime i go to school

No talking

???

When i took the test, got 8 or 9 or smth, I was happy, and proud because i did study for this. But then I told him

"Why no 10?"

He didn't even proud, or even praise me, just a simple "You better get ten next time,"

When my school host an online English competition, I did join and got 3rd place.

Yeah, you guess it

"WHY ARE YOU NOT FIRST PLACE?"

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There are 200 questions, in 30 minutes, and he expect me to be pefect and answer all the questions correctly.

And then i got the reward, he TOOK ALL THE MONEY, TO FUCKING GAMBLE

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Second: swimming

I have heart problems, which mean i am weaker than any normal boys, like weak immune system, gets tired quickly. And at that moment, im malnourished because i spent alot of time learning English.

And yet, I don't know how to swim yet, because I was weak

Because of him, he literally make the same meals almost every day, and i have to save money to buy stuff i need to supplement

Because I can't swim, he FORCE me to swim and literally drop me into a random lake,

This repeated for months, i was exhausted, I cough so hard blood started dripping, does he cares? No

When he was so mad that icant swim, he fuckass trying drown me, and that's the first time i swear to my family members.

That night, I cried. Its was pathetic, but I couldn't help it

Third: singing

I like music, yeah,

He know, and then again, FORCED me to sing songs from my country that i didnt even know its exist, and I don't like it at all, its either has dirty meaning or the instrumental is completely fucked

I mean, dirty meaning songs is good, but the one the force me to learn is so fucked up.

He said no to all my dreams, and literally forcing me to be a singer, which i don't want to and ended up having more scars on me.

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When my mom and dad heard all of that, they can't take it anymore and take me to their place.

After fours fucking years, I'm finally free. I was locked in that house, rotting to dead, sometimes i even harm myself or think about suicidal. I can finally rest now.

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you, grandfather, i hope you die,