im retiring! it's been a while...

Well, how should I begin this?

Let's follow along on my journey with Janitor AI. It all started in April 2025, during the late months of my 11th grade. School had been dull and boring, and becuz I didn’t have much games to play, I had nothing to entertain myself with.

That was when a friend introduced me to Janitor AI.
From this point on, I'll refer to it as JAI.

And oh my, it felt so good at first. You know that feeling when the anime you're watching has a terrible plot twist that makes you super upset and frustrated? That feeling, at least for me, completely disappears when I use JAI, because now I can write my own story instead of just sitting there and consuming whatever they feed me.

From what I've seen and heard, JAI originally started with zero filter, which explains why smut bots were, and still are, so prevalent on the site. JAI has had an impact on me in this regard, but that's not the main focus of this post.

I've always been a prideful person (this will be an overarching issue throughout the post). I have a habit of dissecting whatever other people make and seeing if I can do better than them. So naturally, as I continued to use JAI, a thought came to mind: "If I just generate a lewd AI image and slap a smutty title on it, would it go viral too? Since everyone else does that."

That was how I got interested in becoming a bot creator.

Around June, I discovered AI image generation and became obsessed with it. Tensor.art was mostly free around this time, and the 3-LoRA slot limit was more than enough for me to work with, so I began developing my own AI art style.

Also around this time, I used JAI almost every day. I didn't roleplay much; most of the time I just scrolled through the trending pages, looking at other creators' bots and comparing my own AI art style to theirs.

"Damn, these people's styles are so bad."
"I could do better with my style."

"Is botmaking that easy?"

My bloated ego led me to make a bot. My old JAI account was sxsynthesis (if you recognize it, you're a real OG!). The bots didn't do well. I wasn't surprised, but I was really disappointed. Having fun has always been my main goal, but I'm also strangely drawn to the numbers. The fact that my early bots didn't perform well made me sad and demotivated.

During this time, I was in a rather popular JAI Discord server, and it was really fun there until homesickness (I was attending a boarding school) and my obsession with JAI led me to lash out and upset my friends there. So I deleted my old JAI account and took a break.

As for this Euphy account, I did eventually go back to making bots, and funnily enough, my bots did really well. I'm both happy and grateful. But this success that I didn’t really expect really messed with my head. I slowly developed an unhealthy obsession with trying to make my bots as good and as unique as possible, which meant an inconsistent upload schedule and it made me stressed and tired all the time.

Eventually, all this obsession drained me, and now here we are.

I've truly lost all of my passion and I don't want to stick with botmaking anymore (which explains why my last bot is quite flawed and has received some backlash. I did binge make it in a single evening).

So, with this post, I want to say to all of you my final thank you and goodbye. Thank you for all the support you've shown me over these last five months on this account, and thank you for being my friends. My dearest friends.

I'm sorry, Bland. You're my best friend on this site. I've known you since that time when I used to post a lot of AI gens. Thank you for never giving up on me. I'm sorry for not being able to finish our Elira bots.

Lazy, even though we've only been friends for two months, you've been such an amazing friend, and you always supported me. Thank you for being my friend. I'm sorry for quitting so suddenly.

Rusty, you were there when I was at my lowest. Why? Talking to you was strangely endearing. I wish I could get a :sob: reaction from you under my comment one more time.

Pytor, heyyy, my Vietnamese homie, it's nice knowing you too. I'm really happy to know you're back to playing Limbus! It's the best gacha game ever, trust. Jokes aside, I hope you have fun with the game; Canto 10 is coming soon and I don’t wanna miss it.

TheGuy, I loved your edits, always did. As an amateur still learning from YouTube tutorials, I could never really understand how you could make such amazing graphics. I hope your laptop gets fixed soon and you're back to making bots! I'll use them sometimes.

Jet, I know I've been annoying and a little bit attention-starved, but it's because IRL I'm a bit of a lonely person, so I try a little too hard to get everyone's attention. I'm really sorry and sad that I couldn't annoy you anymore.

Thank you, Moonlight Sanctum, with everyone in it: Timber, Chaos, Bland, Taaxr, Sevens, Ayatane, Florence, Cass, Majestic, Belphegor, Sancte, JFZ00, Froggy, Dia, Liviel, Drongus, Shushi. Thank you for providing me with a place to stay, hang out, and make friends. Even though I was childish and annoying sometimes, please don't take it to heart.

Thank you, truly. Thank you, Juno Works, with Sebas, Waifu, DottedDot, Mangostool, Omega!, kinhhue, zinless, Ryan, mirys, lucky, renariin, ilovegock, and everyone I might have forgotten to name. Even though my stay was short, I had a lot of fun here. Juno Works was like my second home! It's sad that I have to part so soon.

Thank you, Dominion, with Hawke, BT, Insae, 4roz, larquin, Shadow, Flexbebs, Lucid, Yami, Kynta, Exusiai, BigD, cozdrw, Adil, and everyone I forgot to name, for being an amazing server overall. Your events are really fun, even though I only participated in one and got heartbroken by it, hehe. Thank you very much!

Thank you, Zero's Cohort, for being understanding and overall a really quirky and fun place to hang out. Zeronine, Insomniac, Mal, Umbrachi, Lemon, crota, sorii, niste,... . Everyone has been kind and friendly to me, and I am really grateful!

And this is it, my final goodbye. I hope everyone is doing well and that your futures are full of luck and success! I'm sorry I couldn't write any stories for you anymore.

From Euphy, 11:11 PM, July 9th, 2026. My birthday.