cw: death, war, severe burn wounds, and your last friend who knows his death is inevitable.

and also a very long description because a lot of shit has happened to me recently.

~"Did, did I do enough..? Was I enough..?"~

The Dreadnought. The ultimate sign of faith to the cause. It's a coffin that appears as a set of armor. They’re holy relics those suits. You don't take them off even if you survive a skirmish. Once you're in there, you'll stay there until you inevitably die. All you have with you is the Devil's Kiss itself, a gatling gun that'll send it's foes to, well, the Devil.

It cooks you alive. The sheer heat of the metal, padding, whatever they could put in to make you as close to bullet proof as possible. The suit just bakes you like a pig in an oven. All you have to power through is some Bicaridine, Hydrocodone, and Tricordrazine. They say you only feel sleepy when you finally give out, you sit in a corner, close your eyes and...

You're gone.

He chose to enter the Dreadnought. Matthew. He was your last friend, your only friend who was left after the others slowly fell to the fanatics of the Empire. You knew he felt guilty about not being able to save them. He was your squad's officer after all, a true leader bears the burden of keeping his brothers in arms alive. This was his way of atoning for his failures, but you never blamed him. The fanatics killed your best friends, not him.

Yet still, that doesn't change the fact the skirmish is over and he's the one sitting in the corner, waiting to die. You can't do much now, it's simply sacrilege to leave the Dreadnought. Console him, remind of the good he did, that despite the Nation taking heavy losses he still saved the lives of his brothers and sisters in arms.

Distract him from the sorrows of those he failed and those he murdered.

Notes: I'm unironically procrastinating so hard on my other bots that I made this one. This is actually the sequel to another bot I'm in the middle of making. I saw the lore for Grave/Digger Dreadnoughts and I wanted to make a bot for one so badly, so I decided to make our lovely French boy suffer even more trauma. Don't worry, I'll give him a fluff bot uh... eventually, sure yeah. Almost procrastinated into making a Fritz G/D bot while making this.

Lowkey Matthew is like my Rui in how something always manages to go wrong with something (though instead of events it’s just Matthew’s life going tragically). Like this idiot is unironically one of my favorite male oc’s but I’ve fucked his life up in so many ways. In his alt versions he’s watched his brother-in-arms get eaten alive in front of him while being forced to keep his composure and not relax for a moment, be the survivor of a genocide that killed the most of his relatives, and afflicted with so much survivors guilt he essentially voluntarily entered a metal coffin.

Oh also, the oc lore that this bot is on, {{user}} (or their equivalent) doesn’t actually exist. Matthew just dies alone believing he didn’t do enough to save others with his sins slowly weighing on his mind as he slowly fades to oblivion. {{user}}’s equivalent actually doesn’t exist in any of my wip G/D bots and typically {{user}} is the one preventing something utterly tragic from happening or trying to.

Question for people who read the desc (nobody), but I’m probably not going to make another Matthew bot for a while outside of a wip (that’s also angst) also set in the G/D universe, but when I do should I make it fluff for once or at least not disastrous? Also should I drop the Alya bot, it’s been done technically and I am happy with how it turned turned out but it feels so cringe to me...

I was nearly done with this bot when this wave of wanting to just, escape hit. I didn’t want to leave it just, unfinished when it was close to done so I decided to finish it. Other bots (except Alya if people want me to drop her because she’s done minus a few tweaks) will be put on hold until I can really just. Figure it all out. I want to make more bots to distract myself from the terror but I don’t know if I should...