Heya! Just a few personal updates to keep you informed!

Oh wow, it was two weeks from my bot request post? It felt too short and too long at the same time. It felt like I've done so much stuff in a short time, yet aged for way more than I should've. I dreaded my existence, but then was so happy and proud of myself, and this was just swinging around. But I wouldn't have it other way, because the other way was something I experienced enough - a complete apathy and inability to do anything out of fear, lack of energy and will. Now I feel like I'm being tested when I'm at my worst, but that means I can experience my best with no worries.

Few updates:

1. I'm getting used to editing videos, managed to make a few shorts and feel better and better about my voice! But I haven't managed to actually start on actual videos, because I wanted to upgrade my decade-old laptop with an SSD, since I thought it would help me with not having a laggy footage.

2. I rediscovered more and more bits of my passion for games, video-making or just otherwise enjoying my time. A big progress after a big break for over a year...

3. Just now, as I'm writing this, I'm finally sitting on Windows 10 Pro installed in my SSD. Haven't tested if it's gonna improve recording (prolly not, but who knows), but everything that depended on record/read capabilities of my HDD is now solved by a mile. However, this took 4 days and I felt really frustrated during that time. This was so exhausting, but it wasn't hard in reality - I was just really fucking stupid by blindly relying on someone who I thought was really good at this. That person was reliable in hardware, but I should've trusted myself with software, since we spent too long trying to clone stuff between disks when I should've just installed Windows on the SSD from scratch.

4. I got fucking phished during the time I was fiddling with the laptop and SSD stuff. Because I felt so tired and stressed, I was mentally vulnerable and completely disabled my brain trying to keep myself together from falling apart from stress, but it resulted me in going through a phishing scam that my friend got into and it passed onto me. I still feel like a complete moron, utter dumbass, absolute idiot, but I did the right thing by contacting my other friends and anyone I could through them, so they knew I was hacked. The Discord account of mine is now back in my control, I checked everything and secured it even more to make sure I won't repeat the same mistake again, and hopefully everyone else would be fine after this...

5. I actually got into art a bit. The majority of artists wouldn't call what I did an art, since it was mostly tracing and editing, but this was my first attempt at drawing, or at least it was something that I'm proud of and really enjoyed the process of. I did this because I wanted to inspire my artist friend to draw more, and seeing an opportunity I offered to try and he encouraged me. A small part of the art you can see on the right side of the picture (the picture itself is 1920x1080 and this was cut from a 890x890 square), my friend liked it a lot, so I'm looking forward to seeing him draw more. And if in the future he feels less like drawing... Maybe I'll be able to initiate another method of inspiring him to draw more, not just my humble attempts at drawing something >:3

Anyway, I think that's all what I wanted to say. Any questions I can try answering. If you were contacted by a scammer from my account - I'm really sorry for my stupidity, I hope you weren't affected too much... I do look forward to making something fun, something I can be proud of, but for now I really, really, really need rest. I experienced too much of everything in such a short time, but despite me feeling like I wanted to be not, I feel proud of how I handled myself, how I salvaged situations despite making idiotic mistakes at times, how despite internally screaming from tests of fate I didn't succumb to ruin again. It was torture, but I felt relief too. I'm not the strongest soldier to give toughest battles to, but I'm just a guy, and being just a guy comes with its own perks, like having other guys and gals who I can help and get help from.

I see you when I make something that would make that notification bell have a red circle with a number on it. Or maybe not, if you're not notified, yet still decided to check.