I just woke up, so I apologize if this comes across as a half-assed apology, but I still want to address this. To everyone, I'm genuinely sorry for using the r-slur and then trying to downplay it by substituting words like "dumbass" or "idiot." What I did was wrong, and I should have known better than to look for a loophole or use the fact that I'm mentally disabled as an excuse. That does not give me the right to use language that can hurt or offend others.

I've since done proper research and learned that the slur isn't reclaimable, even among people who are physically or mentally disabled. I recognize that I should have taken the time to educate myself sooner rather than trying to justify my actions.

Moving forward, I'll be more mindful of the language I use, do better research, and take greater responsibility for my words and actions. If I've offended or hurt anyone, I'm truly sorry. I'm also sorry if this has changed the way you see me, especially if you've ever looked up to me. I feel terrible about how immaturely I've handled this situation, and I understand that an apology doesn't automatically undo the harm I've caused.

And to the person I accused of being racist when you were rightfully calling me out, I want to sincerely apologize to you as well. I shouldn't have gotten defensive or tried to find excuses and loopholes to justify my use of the R-slur. You were right to call me out, and I should have listened instead of turning the situation around on you.

I genuinely hope you can forgive me. I also apologize for not being able to find your gimmick to tag you directly.

I want to learn from this and do better.