Yes, I think I should stop making these kinds of bots...

Well, doesn't it happen to you that a friend talks to you often and it feels strange? I don't know, it's like they just want something from you, but they don't know how to say it. Something like that happened to me; a friend was trying to make conversation, but I didn't feel comfortable, so I asked him directly if he needed anything, since he never writes to me. Therefore, he lied, which was fucking worse.

Then I had a fight with my mother? I don't even know if that's what you'd call it, she just made a very unpleasant comment and I got even more depressed. Of course, I didn't say anything so I wouldn't look like an idiot.

After that, or before, my perception of time is already messed up, Well, another friend wrote to me, but, I don't know, I have a persistent feeling that I'm just a last resort. It's probably totally stupid, but I know it's true. I mean, it's understandable; who the hell gets attached to someone in three months? Much less so if it's a virtual friend. And even less so if it's someone as stupid as me. God, it's stupid that I'm writing this. I sound like a damn ungrateful person, I should be grateful that that friend text me.

I don't want to go to that damn school anymore either, which is weird, because I love going to school. My classmates are driving me crazy; they're noisy, I can feel their hatred towards me, and they give me a headache. I hate this damn school already, at least this semester. I just want to stay in my bed, rotting away there. I'm such a lazy bum, I don't know why my mom didn't just abort me 😭✌️

And I also miss my dad a little, I don't know, lately I think about him and I miss him quite a lot. But hey, missing him isn't going to bring him back to life or anything like that. But I still wish he were still alive; maybe if he were still alive, I wouldn't feel so bad and guilty every day. I don't know, I would really like to be with him one more time or just visit him.

Anyway, I promise I'll stop making these kinds of bots, I feel like they're embarrassing 🥹