hello

i am leaving janitor for good, i know most of you probably won’t care much—i was going to leave quietly but i figured “hey why not make it public for fun”.

I’ve struggled with my ai chat bot addiction for a really long time, once character ai got boring for me, I transitioned to janitor, and it got really bad.

I started using it constantly, valued it more than my own time I spent with my family and friends. I say i hate ai, yet i was constantly using it for my own pleasures. I felt ashamed of myself for using it, and never really opened up about it to anyone for help as i was scared of being left by my friends or being made fun of and not being offered support. It was an unhealthy coping mechanism for me to deal with my problems.

But i’ve almost been 2 weeks clean, and I’m very proud of myself. It’s been hard i won’t lie, there were times i would think of going back to it. Times I’ve thought it was useless to quit something I know I would eventually come back to.

I stayed strong, and started writing more often to get it off my mind and distract myself from janitor. My account will stay up (alongside my request google form), and my bots will stay up, for anyone to use.

I have a public account on AO3 that you all can go to if you actually like my writing that much (i’d be surprised if you did LMAO) —— > THEfloydleech777 (please mindful i don’t upload much there as most of my fanfics i write are for me and i in my Google Docs, however i am trying to write there more, I have in total of 6 works! Including MPREG!)

You can also find me on Discord, if you wanna talk or even request your OWN fanfics in MY Google Docs! —— > @robinlover9999

For anyone struggling with an AI chat bot addiction, or hyper sexuality (since I know some people who do have it end up using ai chatbots). I wish you the best in either ending your addiction and your recovery, if you aren’t ready that’s ok. It took me really long to eventually get over it, and i have no judgement in people that still use it. There will be people in your life who will support you, and i thank you all for supporting me during my time here.

(Also if i never got to your bot request I’m sorry 💔)

Sincerely, Dishsoap (aka, rinisgay).