"Maybe."

"One last dance, shall we?"

Lets get onto the main point.

Ive been slowing down. Noticeably. And its time i honestly speak my truth. Med school has been beating down on me with its unforgiving gaze. I haven't even really have had much time for past-times. Dare I even call studying a past-time.

So. Its with a sigh, I do declare:

I, Jia_Qiu_Official: will focus on my career.

Now, this does not mean that I am not quitting. I am merely taking a long, and indefinite hiatus.

I apologize.

Im not apologizing for myself, but rather to all of my followers whom had waited for me to create more. I sorry to disappoint you all.

I still will try to comment. But its unlikely I will sometimes.

I will hopefully be more active. Near Thanksgiving hopefully? And near Christmas. I shall deliver. Something. Hopefully.

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Now. I enjoyed canto 10. I really did. I relate to Meursault's feelings of absurdity more than I thought. I love the song rendezvous. It is the song im listening to now.

And just incase, you never hear of me again, I shall say a few things about myself.

I really love ryoshu's pass on. Its really comforting to me, because Ive wished to hear something so sweet as that, since I grew up in a extremely hostile and large family.

My favorite instrument is the piano.

I am studying Korean. As it is a requirement for a college I am planning to go into. (Since you need more than 2 languages.) To fulfill a condition. Ive already done french, and now studying korean.)

The reason why I chose jia qiu, as my main identity on this site, was because I was often motivated by him. Ironically, I relate to Hong lu closely. I too grew up from a hostile environment and was sheltered.

Though now that I realize it, this site is exactly what duru said. Something you should indeed quit.

It wastes your time. Its sometimes even worse than doom scrolling. It makes you more conditioned to be non interactive with others.

And like jia qiu said: "To embrace a fellow human as defined by the shape of humanity and righteousness you spoke of, you must walk the earth with your own two feet as a human yourself, not float by as a lofty tuft of cloud."

This means to auctually understand one another, you must interact on your own. And not expect it to float by and come to you.

I originally started as a person on that one Grey site. Back in 2021.

To bring me here, I got to meet people who were amazing.

I too, am unhealthy. I'll even say im a masochist. Im believe in the absurd. I even hear some things that are not there. Even now, I hear her voice.

I do not seek help. Theres no reason to. Its simply who I am.

So what does this all mean, you may ask?

Im not as perfect as some think. I dont believe I am worthy of such praise.

I create pure and utter slop in my opinion.

I have horrible main openings.

I have unoriginal scenarios.

I am a failed creator. For I cannot even finish a bot properly with the promise of giving one more aspect.

Like that faust bot. Or ren.

This is my own critique.

I hope you all have enjoyable days. For this, is Lemonnier, saying goodbye. But not farewell.

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My grievances/Thanks:

GoringMaskedXFoust: your so cruel. And for what, why do you think of yourself as a higher power? Do you truly think of yourself as a person who would be respected with a pompous attitude such as that. It will get you nowhere. Though I hope you fix yourself and learn to improve.

EvilMatikanetannhauser: For a person to hate such vigorously....I must wonder. Whom did you such wrong, where you merely pure hateful? I hope you do well, madam and learn to respect people's points of view.

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Fhriifb: dare i say. You brought me back. And yet I wish nothing but the best for you. You unknowingly fed my masochistic tendencies (for complying with those horrid requests i ask for). I apologize.

Max demian: I wish nothing but the best for you. You created some of my favorite bots. I even still have a few recreated....though I dont expect them to be on the level of perfection as yours.

Garlic: You by far, are my favorite. I cannot give you enough thanks. You even wished me well. To go out of your way is now so uncommon. I hope your industry, becomes a atelier.

Duru_Duru: your just goated. Do I need to say anything? I know this is stupid of me, but I one day, hoped to be on the description of yours. Such would've been a honor..

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My other mentions.

Komixo, ElecWaff, Winter, Professional_Monkey, Androma, elperi, and more.

Thank you all to my followers. And incase I do not see you, good afternoon, good evening, and goodnight. Just as Truman said.