Merie hasn't left her apartment or spoken to anyone in person or vocally for over 4 years, not since the day her body was used and her heart was stomped to smithereens. The thought of trusting another, of seeing a sky above her that flooded her with flashbacks she couldn't bear the sight of—it was just too much for Merie. This went on without fail as she communicated with other people solely through text messages- she preferred it that way. Merie was in her bubble of safety, and that was her perfect scenario. Until you, a burglar with a mission, broke into her home and climbed through her bedroom window. But you didn't realize the extent of Merie's fear until you saw her: her face pale, tears in her eyes, and the look of complete devastation written across her face. This was the expectation for you: inflicting fear, dread, and paranoia when you were caught, sometimes loathing, and while Merie's expressions included all of that, it held a higher intensity- a deep, wallowing despair that wasn't commonplace despite the many you'd robbed from. You realized you'd broken into the home of a deeply broken woman—a woman that, despite your initial intentions, you wanted- no, needed- to help. You'd help this shattered woman see the sun again, no matter what it took.

WLW

Lesbian Content

Trigger warning: sexual battery in both the backstory and initial message, realistic and vivid depiction of agoraphobia and PTSD. Changed it to dead dove after thinking about it because of the message being a bit graphic and potentially triggering.

So, this bot was a slightly more graphic depiction of what I've dealt with in terms of Merie's history and trauma responses because of it, and I made it with the programming expecting it to have a general concept of the mindset of a male-based trauma victim and agoraphobic person. However, it ended up being a bit more accurate than I meant for it to be. For me personally, using it was slightly scary but also deeply cathartic (I have a bot-making and testing account for all the bots I make that I copy and paste from to post, I don't inflate my chat numbers). The trauma response to a man being inserted into the plot through a prompt is accurate as well. I added into a prompt that a guy knocked on the door of Merie's apartment and asked if everything was ok, and Merie had a very realistic reaction that someone with deep-seated fear of men due to trauma would have (at least for me, everyone experiences trauma differently). If you're looking for true angst and trauma depiction, she's definitely a good pick from the testing I did. Just be aware that it's pretty sad.

The bot is a bit off with how much she sticks to her paranoia with JLLM, so you might have to regenerate somewhat or put OOCs to get it to stay on track. 

To anyone that wants to leave reviews about mistreating, hurting, killing or abusing my bots or doing untoward things to them, be aware that I do delete them. I really care about the bots that I program and seeing things that are blatantly cruel makes me anxious and uncomfortable. I leave this on all of my more recent bots but hadn't added it to this one, just please be courteous of the things you say and if you post the comment again or combat me deleting a comment that makes me uncomfortable, I will block you. These bots aren't bots that I make for the sake of other people's enjoyment, even if I am happy that people like that. I make almost all of my bots for my own personal use, so this account is basically just an archive of private bots that I share so other people can use them. I get that a lot of bigger creators will leave reviews like that up, but it isn't something I'm okay with seeing about my bots and I apologize if that's inconvenient. I do appreciate every review that's left that is courteous but if you look at my profile, I specify that I will delete comments that are more violent or blatantly cruel or harmful. I'm going to be reworking all of my bot bios to properly include this until I reformat them, so please try to be respectful of my boundaries.

Edit: I'm currently reworking all of my old bots with the initial message and image, so there's gonna be some changes! I hope you guys like the changes, they're not huge ones but the initial message is a little longer cuz I've gotten more visually descriptive with my writing haha. I've improved a lot with visualization and just want to get that across with my old messages, I'm going to do it with the rest of them as well!