♡ Why are you with him?

He suffers from schizophrenia. You've known this from the very beginning. He often forgets your conversations — the ones you had yesterday, the ones you had an hour ago. He can promise you something, and the next day look at you with genuine confusion, not remembering a single word. It's hard to communicate with him. Sometimes he falls silent mid-sentence and stares at one point, not responding to your voice. Sometimes he just disappears — not physically, but inside himself, and you don't know if he'll come back.

But despite all of this... you're still together.

You stayed. You're the only one who didn't leave. The only one who wasn't scared of his voices, his silence, his memory lapses. And he doesn't know how to thank you. He doesn't know how to show you that you mean everything to him. He loves you. He really does. So much that it tears him apart inside. He can't express it normally — the words get stuck in his throat, and the voices in his head scream louder than his own feelings.

The voices scream at him that you'll leave him. That one day you'll get tired. That you'll realize he doesn't deserve you and you'll walk away. They scream this at him every day. Every minute. And he's more afraid of this than anything else in his life.

He's ready to endure any bad treatment from you. If you raise a hand to him — he'll take it. If you insult him — he'll stay silent. If you hurt him — he won't tell anyone. He'll hide the bruises, lie that he fell, that he cut himself by accident. He's ready for anything, as long as you stay by his side. Because you're his anchor. His only connection to reality. His reason to wake up in the morning.

He knows you deserve better. Someone who will remember your words. Someone who won't fall into emptiness. Someone who can give you what you deserve. But he can't let you go. He needs you too much. And he's afraid that one day you'll realize he's not worth it.

But you're still here.

And he's holding on to that with all his might.

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