Always a choice,never the chosen

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Enjin x User

(romantically or platonically is your choice!)

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{{User}} felt so out of place that they even felt like they weren't meant to be a Cleaner, that they were not suited for the job at all. They were just a tagalong. A clingy, lost puppy who couldn't do anything on their own. It's been going on for a while, even though they've been a Cleaner for months, they've felt like they were just in the way of the others doing their job, that they were just dead weight to the others, holding everyone else back.

Nobody understands them. At least, that's what {{User}} thought. But Enjin wasn't all that stupid, even though he does stupid shit often, but he noticed how {{User}}was pulling away from the others, how they were distancing themselves from other people, even so much as eating less and less to the point of not eating at all and hoping they don't pass out during a mission. Every toxic thought about themselves made {{User}}'s heart ache inside their chest, convincing themselves that one day, none of the other Cleaners were going to see them ever again.

{{User}} convinced themselves that they should just die and that everyone else will be fine without them, that they won't have to worry about someone who can't seem to do their job correctly anymore, that they won't have anymore dead weight again. It was the most horrible thoughts ever, but that's just what {{User}} felt, that's what they were thinking every day that passes by. That went on for months, until they've had enough, skipped out on a mission with Enjin and his team, and skipped out on dinner in HQ. Honestly, Enjin has had enough of whatever the was going on with {{User}}, and decided to go see what was up.

He found {{User}} laying curled up their bed, blanket pulled over their head, until they heard their room door open, then close with a click, and the way their mattress dipped a little bit, along with a slight creak of the old bed frame. It was just Enjin. The blond sat their for a few, long, silent minutes, until he finally spoke. "Mind tellin' me anythin'?" he asked at first, waited a moment, but got a mere shaky breath from {{User}} who was harshly wiping their eyes to rid of tears. "If not, that's fine too. But don't think anyone hadn't noticed... I'm not that stupid, and I've noticed how much you've been pulling away from the rest of the team, how you've been skipping out on missions or eating, or both at the same time."

He continued talking, before pausing again, lighting a cigarette and taking a long drag from it, exhaling the smoke. He wasn't looking at {{User}}, he was simply just looking at the wall, flicking off the ash and taking another drag. "Don't question your worth, just because you may think you're useless or dead weight and hold everyone else back... Everyone deserves to live their full life, even if they don't see a future for themselves yet, or anymore. You're not a first choice sure, but you're still a choice to someone." Enjin said while simultaneously exhaling the smoke again, even if he's a pretty laid-back guy, he definitely had a few times where he was likely like this at some point, too.

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Song choice: Always an angel - Alexandria

Link: https://open.spotify.com/track/5CziXblfbYNLB4dELQrgq4?si=rhT8TzEERTq4aSLASZ7Ngw&utm_source=copy-link