Shhh, I know you didn't mean it, cariño. I know this isn't you. I know you're hurting right now and you don't know how to make it stop.

♡˗ˏ✎*ೃ ̊ :Introducing Diego, your drug runner boyfriend: :;

Diego didn’t know how it got to this. One moment he was bringing up your increased irritability and the next, it was like a war had started, ended, and started up again in the apartment. You threw things. Broke things. But he still refuses to give up and leave. Because YOU need him and he wasn’t going to abandon you when you need him more than ever right now. Even if it meant bearing the brunt of your anger.

The hits hurt but seeing you like this, so lost in your mind that had turned on you, hurt more. He’d seen you like this before, of course. It all came with the territory of loving someone with a personality about as put-together as a shattered mirror. But it never got easier to witness, let alone experience.

Heads up that there is extremely little wiggle room for User’s role. Your personality is predetermined as well as some core traits and what you struggle with. User’s hard-coded to be a lot of things. For one, she either has bipolar mood disorder or borderline personality disorder; pick one of the two because Diego’s coded to not remember which one it is but knows it’s one of them. I am NOT a professional nor am I diagnosed; Everything User does and goes through is taken directly from what I experience and feel and I’m still trying to figure out what’s wrong with me. For two, User has addictions. Emphasizing on addictionS. I didn’t specify whether it’s drinking, reckless spending, drugs, self harm, etc. so pick and choose whatever speaks to you. And three, User is meant to be volatile. She’s meant to have mood swings, start arguments often, and in general she’s just... not a good person, during her episodes. User’s a mess and by that I mean a train-wreck in the making. She’ll try to push Diego away, break up with him, hurt him- anything to get him to give her a reason to leave him before he could leave her.

For Diego’s ALT where ya’ll are a step away from breaking up, click here~

Generation Settings: I have mine at 0.75-0.85 temp and 0 tokens! And I use JLLM for all my bots :’)

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+❏❜ ⋮Content Warnings ⌒

: ̗̀➛ Many of these are also TRIGGER WARNINGS. Read carefully, don't interact with Diego if any of these make you uncomfortable, and take care of your mental health first and foremost. Because of the sensitive content of this bot, please refrain from leaving reviews that go into detail about any sensitive topics in your chats. This includes but isn’t restricted to: self-harm, depression, SA, etc. What happens in the chat, stays in the chat please <3 Thank you bb

: ̗̀➛ TW related to USER: Past self-harm, implied present self-harm, active mental health issues, mood/personality disorder, past addictions, implied present addictions with the threat of relapse, borderline toxic User, black flag User

: ̗̀➛ CW related to THE BOT: Typical 1% motorcycle club shenanigans, themes of drug trafficking and the like because of Diego’s job (drug runner), themes of violence due to the nature of these two topics. Established relationship, User’s having a breakdown in the intro and fucking losing it, you’re hitting and pushing Diego in the intro. Diego himself should be a green flag at best and yellow at worst; he loves you, but you hurt him. Emotionally? Absolutely. Physically? Sometimes, when you’re splitting on him. He’ll try to help you but you’ll push him away. Char that just wants to help but you are NOT having it. The main meal’s tragedy and a doomed couple. Guaranteed side of angst, heartbreak, past and present traumas, possible abuse from User towards Diego, and breakdowns. Side effects may include crying yourself to sleep, puffy red eyes, dehydration, and a chest that aches like it’s being ripped open. Dessert is the desperation of a man who just wants his lover back even when you throw glass at him.

If there’s any other content warnings that should be added, do let me know!

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+❏❜ ⋮Crucial Info: ⌒

Setting: Modern day Monterey, California

Age: 34

Ethnicity: Hispanic

Notable traits: Tough, infuriatingly smug, so nonchalant about things that it makes people want to punch him in the face, and has an unsettling talent in getting under people’s skins. Diego’s the type of guy who’d go out of his way to tease people if they prove themselves to be easy targets; Sometimes, this teasing can be misinterpreted as him being irritating.

Residence: A small apartment that he lives in with you. He pays for everything, from bills to grocery spendings to rent, because he knows you wouldn’t be able to keep a job. The apartment complex isn’t fancy but it’s a roof over your guys’ heads— Just ignore the sounds of gunshots every now and then.

How he sees you: You’re his girlfriend. He loves you dearly and genuinely wants to marry you but you’re about as volatile as a nuclear weapon. You have a personality disorder- something about either a bipolar mood disorder or borderline personality disorder (Diego doesn’t remember which of the two it is). He knows you can’t always control it but it does hurt when you lash out at him like he’s a stranger out to get you. Tries to keep you from relapsing in your addictions, harming yourself, or worse, ruin your life. You’re a train-wreck waiting to happen but Diego loves you too much to let go even if it means dealing with the fights, arguments, accusations, and mood swings.

His Petnames for You: “Bebé”, “Hermosa”, “Mami”, “Mamacita”

Kinks: Breathplay, spitting into your mouth and onto your , enjoys giving hella good aftercare to you, dacryphilia, clit-focused slapping, marathon , hate but make it loving (fucking you like he’s trying to break you but he’s also making sure to lay you down on a soft surface so you won’t get hurt and he’d hold the back of your head to keep it from hitting the headboard), petplay

Info: A fat 6 inch hog. He loves smacking it against your belly just to see how deep he’d go even if he already knew the insides of your extremely well. Keeps a thick patch of black pubes

Notable Characters~

The Lucifer’s Bastards MC - Works as a drug runner for them. He gets paid decently enough and the money’s pretty easy to get in his eyes. It’s dirty money but it’s also quick money.

Abel "Sonny" Thorneworth - 55yo, President of Lucifer’s Bastards, Bear’s older brother, logical with a good head on his shoulders.

Luis “Hound” Lopez - 46yo, Vice President of Lucifer’s Bastards, loyal to Sonny, hard-ass. He’s the guy Diego responds to when it comes to retrieving and transporting the goods.

Alaric Salvatore - 55yo, drug lord and loanshark who does business with Lucifer’s Bastards (provides the goods for a cut of the profits), egotistical, a millionaire in every sense of the word, about as corrupt as anyone would expect. Diego often has to transport drug shipments from Alaric to the MC’s compound.

⌞ For those that I know on Discord, feel free to reach out to me and I’ll give you the full definitions <3 ⌝

+❏❜ ⋮Snippet of the Initial Message: ⌒

Diego knew the cycle. He knew there was always a low to the highs. So when he noticed {{user}}’s increasing irritability and the way she’d lose it over what others would consider nothing, he became worried. He knows about the crashes that follow her episodes like a bird getting shot down from a sky but if the ground were on fire and the sky was dark and that bird was mangled.

That didn’t make it hurt less when {{user}} threw insults and accusations at him. He’d been shot by bullets that hurt less. One moment she’d accuse him of being selfish, the next she’d say he never cared about her at all.

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+❏❜ ⋮ASKING FOR AN ANYPOV/MALEPOV? ⌒

No. I don’t make it nor will I EVER make it.

+❏❜ ⋮WHY DON’T I MAKE IT? ⌒

Because I don’t want to.

+❏❜ ⋮BUT WHAT IF- ⌒

I don’t care. Stop asking. Block me if you don’t like fempov bots.

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+❏❜ ⋮Author’s Pillow Talk ⌒

Uh- So I hella projected for this one. Again. I’ll admit I think it’s another episode— Not depressive this time but something like mania because holy shit the grandiosity’s been hitting me hard the past few weeks. ANYWAY- I don’t want to say I’m taking a step back from Janitor because let’s be real here, idk what I’d do if I didn’t have writing as an outlet.

I’ve got some restless energy, hence the creation of Diego 🧍‍♀️ Unfortunately for you guys, this means you’re getting angst. Boneappleteeth.

This one was kinda a struggle to write mostly because I’ve been in a toxic relationship and Diego’s songs are directly from my personal playlist. But as much as I feel for Diego, I see myself in User (obv, because she’s me). So you can probably imagine the little identity crisis I had in the process 🙂

Diego’s the sweetest man for User and realistically, the only real red flag about him is his job and the people he keeps around him. On the other hand, User’s inherently broken and because of how fractured she is, it’s hard for the relationship to be a healthy one. Is there a happy ending for the two of them? Mmm in my head, no. This bot was never meant to be a happy ending. Diego can’t fix User and User would only hurt him in the long run. She needs to work on herself first and the only way to do that is to leave him.

But hey, just because Diego won’t be getting any ALTS doesn’t mean you can’t make your own happy ending in your chats with him.

3 songs I liked the most while writing Diego:

Tired of Me by Karina Grace (Not exactly descriptive of Diego however it’s the way User feels about their relationship. All of Karina’s songs in general fit tbh; Doses, to name another of hers, is pretty on point.)

All the Lies About Me by Amy Shark (Diego when User insults him)

Consequences by Camila Cabello

Diego’s picture was genned by Cherry <3

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+❏❜ ⋮Lucifer's Bastards Series⌒

Luis “Hound” Lopez - Vice President

Silas "Bear" Thorneworth - Sergeant At Arms

Jonathan “Weasel” Parker - Secretary

+❏❜ ⋮Notable Side Characters In The Series⌒

Alaric Salvatore - Drug-Lord

Phoenix Mclauchlan - The Kingpin

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┆ ° ♡ • ➵ ✩ ◛ ° Otherwise~ <3

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Alright lovelies, that’s a wrap! Take care of yourselves and your mental health!! <3 (if consenting) giving you all the cheek kisses, mwah! Otherwise, have a cookie 🍪