i feel disgusted, and i feel drained.

why am i like this?

i just want it to end.

im unhealthy, i’m unfit.

i know that

just let me sleep.

don’t wake me up.

don’t bother.

im not worth your time.

not worth your energy.

why are you staying?

im a parasite, hell bent on stealing all your energy for me.

and me only.

scream at me, glare at me.

just go.

i was a waste of your time.

failed, useless, morphed into a machine radiating sadness.

you talk of all that i do wrong.

all that i screw up.

as if that isn’t what i know i am.

don’t you know i’m guilty?

i know i am.

i feel i am

my ears ring with the silence, echoing your words back.

into my ear, into my head.

into my thoughts, out of my mouth.

kill me.

as long as its the only thing i do right for this world.