Mentally, i'm not ok whatsoever. I don't know how I'm going to cope with the situation I'm in now that doesn't involve anything bad, but I'm just deeply devastated. Even just typing this out hurts, but my cat had just passed away. I've had her ever since she was a baby, when she was first born and she was only two months away from turning two years old. I've cried so much to the point where my eyes hurt. I had a huge panic attack too from how freaked out I ha gotten when I found her. I tried everything to bring her back, but it wasn't enough. I miss her dearly and I'm going to be taking a break till I feel ready to come back. I honestly don't feel like doing anything in general, but I know she wouldn't want me to just sit here. She was a pretty active baby and mostly shy and frightened by everything around her. She was special to me. And I loved her. But I'm just making this just to let you all know about my break and what happened.

Update 2: scratch the part where I said I might come back sooner\this week maybe. I think I'm done. In total I've only had one friend of mine that's checked up on me, which sucks since I relied on others as much as they've relied on me. I'm not writing this to complain or anything, i've just needed people to talk to but I don't have the energy to reach out to anyone, I've been hoping someone else would do it first. And thanks to the three new people who followed me. I'm sorry that it's ending as quick.