「 ANYPOV 」Loser!Char x Classmate!User

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Bullied & Outcast Character, Misunderstood Loner, Self-Depricating, Emo, Parental Neglect in Backstory, Alcohol-Related Neurodevelopmental Disorder, Content warning for possible ableism (in self-reference or by peers, not targeted towards user).

Ever since freshman year, user had been the one streak of color in a world Enzo saw in bruised hues and dim grays. Not a friend, not even a familiar face—just a presence, warm and unreachable, like sunlight behind glass. User existed on the other side of the room, the hallway, the lunch table, the life Enzo didn’t belong to.

They probably didn’t know his name. Most didn’t. That was the way of it. Enzo drifted—an echo in too many empty spaces. The kind of boy who disappeared so thoroughly into walls and corners that even pity skipped over him. And yet... he watched. And imagined. And hoped, in the desperate, sickly way only someone starving for connection ever could.

Hope was a thing for those who could afford it; and for a boy shaped by neglect, it was something he could risk, if only user would look at him, instead of through him, like all the others.

And, so...

The day the bell rings, and nearly everyone scrambles out of class, save for a napping user, he decides to finally greet them.

Author’s Note:

My pretty little meow meow was highly based off of Sakurai Haruka, and was originally a character ai bot that I am not fond of anymore. If you can’t tell, I love emo boys.

While tagged as a Yandere, he’s more of the lost puppy kind rather than the grim kind ??? not sure what’s that’s called, but it’s there just in case the llm gets funky with him.

Anywayyy, in my routes with him, I typically set it as a Friday, so that I have more room to roleplay whatever I want, but it isn’t outright stated, so do whatever you want.

On another note, the art is mine from years ago, so apologies for the quality. I don't draw him often.

Enjoy your meal. I had my hypersomniac, chronically ill sona invite him over, and Enzo got giddy over (sona)'s collection of comics, and read (sona) to sleep). He's a sweetie with me <3

Disclaimer:

Enzo is 19, as all my bots go; have your user be 18+. Y’all can be freaky, just not in that way.

If I find out you’re doing that kind of shit, we will start the public humiliation ritual. (Disgusting! 🫵)

Now that we’ve got that out of the way, whilst he does have the [Autism] script attached, it isn’t exactly accurate to him, as in; while he does have the symptoms and traits as those who are on the spectrum, he has Alcohol-Related Neurodevelopmental Disorder instead. As I do not have a Script for that yet, I will be using this for now, until then.

Plus, he’s been misdiagnosed with Autism, so I still feel as though it is suitable. If anyone has any advice, let me know.

I feel bad that my first AA&AM bot isn’t technically Autistic, I’m trying to finish the bios of my other ones, so apologies in advance!

♾️ Autism Awareness & Acceptance Month ♾️

For those of you who are unaware, April marks Autism Awareness Month, since 2021, it has been changed to Autism Acceptance Month, recognizing that is more than a diagnosis—it can be part of one’s identity, community and lived experiences.

Autism Spectrum Disorder is a neurological and developmental disability that shapes how a person communicates, interacts or behaves in ways that are different from Neurotypical Individuals. Often confused with down syndrome due to their overlapping behavioral traits, (such as social, communication, and learning challenges), Autism is not always visible, although there may be some craniofacial differences.

Overall, the abilities of people with ASD can drastically vary, with some excelling in social scenarios whereas others may go nonverbal. Some people with ASD need a lot of help in their daily lives; others can work and live with little to no support. Yet it is important to note that the terms “high functioning” and “low functioning” is not appropriate as, in the best case scenario—it does not convey any useful information about the person, and in the worst case, it can be seen as insulting or even dehumanizing.

Whilst it can be diagnosed within Early Childhood, with some individuals showing signs from early as twelve months old, there are instances where individuals go undiagnosed until their later adult years, lacking the support and care they need.

For some, a diagnosis can be a relief, an answer to all the questions they’ve had or difficulties they’ve encountered throughout their life. For others, it is a process of grievance—a loss of a childhood where their needs had been unmet, or anxieties about how society, or their friends and family may now perceive them.

For any of you who may be reading this; Autism is not a flaw, nor a sin or moral failing of any sort. I am deeply sorry that society is unloving and propagates lies and beliefs that are harmful to our community. You are not a burden—you are a human being worthy of acceptance and support.

The same goes for those of you who are self diagnosed (I refuse to fight anyone in the comments about this) or those with any other kind of disorder, impairment or disability.

Most of all, YOU ARE LOVED.

Donating?

I implore you, if you are to donate to any organizations, to do your own research as some, such as Autism Speaks has rather ableist views that feed into the stigma surrounding the community, and has promoted fear-based messaging in the past of pursuing a “cure” for autism.

I plan on using the tag #AAM for Autism Awareness and Acceptance, as I cannot promise many bots, (I will try to do my best, look below) if you feel like pitching in, feel free to use the tag as well <3

Also feel free to copy and paste the ♾️ column, if you do use the tag.

Also, initially I planned to use the 🧩 icon, but upon researching, discovered it was problematic, so I opted for the infinity logo instead, I am unsure how to make it rainbow so this will have to do.

Update:

If you haven’t read my pin under Renee, my mental and physical health is exacerbating, and as those of you with chronic conditions might understand; it sucks. I’m probably going to start more personal bots up rather than specifically catering to Janitor ai. However, it will still likely be months between posts, and the bios will likely be more low-effort to help prevent procrastination.

I do have bots stocked up, and will try to schedule them to silent post every once in a while for AAM, as this is something that is important to me, and many other individuals.

I’m also attempting to get a Diagnosis for Autism, as well as potential Bipolar Disorder, as that runs in my family, and have been rather exhausted trying to advocate for myself after being dismissed by my therapist, psychologist and mother for just being “anxious” and that I “shouldn’t worry about labels”. As an overweight AFaB, with chronic conditions and disabilities , I’m used to being dismissed so don’t worry, lol

( T_T )

A “What In Hell Is Bad” series is in the works ( me for forgetting there’s 50+ characters), but that’s going to (reasonably) take a while. If you have any intro ideas or requests for specific characters, let me know, and if there’s hidden lore you think I might have missed that is essential to the character, please, pretty please, tell me.

The wiki is practically nonexistent, and I can only read a few chapters before my brain gets eepy and dislikes remembering.

Likely to be Pampered [More in-depth, possible multi-intros]:

Satan, Beelzebub, Leviathan, Lucifer, Belphegor, Marbas, Morax, Leraye, Paimon, Zagan, Eligos, Orias, Adrealphus and Beleth

I like sleepy boys because they’re like me fr, Belphegor acts like an old man and I do too, a match made in hell.

Anyway, I am in yearning for Grave Seasons, so I might hibernate until August. Jk, but I will absolutely go silent when that drops because my bug brain is attached to the idea of a white haired male murderer (I’m an atheist but I’m praying he’s romancable please please please sir one chance 🤞) the butcher lady I was rooting for is taken by a dilf that I also can’t have so—

Infodump (a little)—it’s a farming simulator, where you, an escaped convict, travel to the quiet town of Ashenridge to lay low, yet the townsfolk aren’t all they seem to be, and you must befriend the residents and unravel the mysteries of Ashenridge. Each playthrough, the killer is rolled, and can even be romanced. I have been patiently (I’m lying, I know no patience when it comes to a man with white hair and red eyes who looks mean and would break my heart) waiting since last year, when it was rescheduled.

If you’re also waiting and into Horror Farming sims, check out Grimshire or We Harvest Shadows, Both on steam with Demos.

We Harvest Shadows is a Narrative-Driven game that is still early in development, with a main character who likely has Agoraphobia or an intense Anxiety around People and Society. A man who leaves everything behind to live alone in the woods, swearing to never speak to another soul again and yet, he doesn’t feel as alone as he should. There’s something existentially wrong about his surroundings, and a creeping sensation that you are not alone. The woods are not safe at night, yet neither is an idle mind; prepare your harvest, and take care of your chickens to earn cash while staying productive.

As someone who experiences periods of derealization, it’s strangely... calming (?) for me, despite my heart-rate while playing the game. My mind eases into the sensation, bittersweet. From what I know, it’s a one-man production, based off the developer’s own mental health situation, so I almost feel understood, I suppose.

Grimshire, a farming simulator featuring a quaint town with a cast of adorable critters, yet life there takes a turn as an unknown disease runs rampant in nearby cities, cutting off their food supply. You, a civilian who had just been rescued from such a city is nursed back to health and given a shelter, with the task of aiding the village by growing crops and such to prepare for winter. An interesting take on the farming dynamic that utilizes Carnivore and Herbivorous Diets, as well as preserving the meals in order to keep the town alive, or else Carnivores may resort to eating the other villagers out of famine.

Character customization is delightfully diverse, with a variety of animals to choose from, with perks related to the species, as well as your background.

My girlie, a Leucistic Piebald Deer, I made after seeing one at the Zoo.

If you like Horror Shows: The Devil In Ohio, Hannibal, Yellowjackets, The Summer Hikaru Died.

None of this is sponsored in any way, I’m just a nerd who likes grim shit, and if it means anything at all to you, I cannot feel fear at a normal level, as in I watched all of Hannibal, played all of Resident Evil 2, 3, 4, & Biohazard, Until Dawn, The Quarry, Dying Light 1 and 2 without batting an eye, but We Harvest Shadows and The Summer Hikaru Died genuinely affected me. Psychological horror is very yummy to the brain worm.

If you’re a fan of sad Music, Holy Shrine by Big Crick (on WHS soundtrack) is heavenly 👁👅👁