so. Hi there. I'm back by unpopular demand to explain why I ghosted you all because that much is deserved.

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A brief retelling of how my life was thoroughly fucked in the ass ✨

(and about wtf happened with the bots lowkey)

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I physically could not keep working because after that absolutely fucked head injury I got a while ago courtesy of one (1) tyre with an attitude problem, I developed a chronic subdural hematomia (even I don't really know what tf this is, I got it explained to me as having a very slow and gradual blood leak in my brain which was FUCKING me up). it messed with my mobility really bad and there was genuinely about three weeks when I couldn't move my hands

And, with the ever-growing knowledge that yes I did have excessive brain damage that I just ignored for like two months I decided to take a break and completely forgot to tell anyone because I was in a pretty fucked up headspace (this time pun intended). I'm pretty much up to scratch now but I honestly don't know if I'll end up continuing to post bots, I've fallen out of the grid completely, I even dropped my fics that I was writing because I spent that long not writing about them I forgot most of the direction I was going in. so yeah, I may occasionally post the odd bot or edit old ones that aren't accurate (broken pantheon I'm fucking watching you) but I don't think I'll be doing them regularly

I am however proud to announce that after I went in for my MRI, my nurse told me that the doctor literally dropped his clipboard and said oh shit because there should have been no possible way that I'd managed to ignore it for as long as I did without pain meds

also the reason the pictures got out btw was I told my hg that if I ever died she had to take down the art on my profile because I wouldn't be able to respond to any complaints asking me to take if down for copyright reasons from my coffin