Hi and hello, as you know me, I am Not_trusted, either that or Whuguynarhehe, and recently as you've most likely noticed, It's been a long while since I last uploaded, and I do apologize for that, but here is my reason behind this.

1st. I am losing motivation. I've been losing the motivation towards making bots, I look at images and think of a good idea, at times, I think of a good idea for a bot, but once I start, I feel like I don't have much motivation for it.

2nd. I have recently been focusing on my life much more, especially after an incident that has happened, one that has damaged others, one that has damaged me in a way tho not severely. I've been talking and hanging out with family and friends, and been speaking much more to my beautiful girlfriend, due to this I've forgotten about J.AI a lot more.

3rd. I don't hate being here, no, but at times I think of what I'll do in life further on as I'll be using the Not_trusted name as my own (Either that or Not_truzted) which in that case, I don't just want to be known on a porn site, I especially want my drawings to reflect more of me rather than just bots.

4th. I am sorta in a way losing ideas for bots in a way, obviously there's a request, but at times, I do question if I just only want to do forsaken for most of my days.

I am sorry that I leave you people disappointed.

Now am I leaving?
Most probably, I might start working on fanfics ngl.

Honestly.

I know what is going to happen, I quit, but then I come back, I don't think I'm ever going to change, and I'm afraid of that.

I know I'll come back, make more bots than ever but then just quit, it's stupid.

Honestly, I think I fear change, I don't think I want to change. This was the only place where I for once felt like I belonged, a place where I got popular in some way, but once I leave, it all disappears, I like it here in a way. It hurts more because this was one of the only ways I could write and just watch it get popular in some shape or form, one of the only places where I could just be recognized.

I'm aware I'm taking this too seriously, but I think I need to let out my emotions for once just to show why I'm quitting.

Again, I am most probably going to quit, I might make some last bots before leaving, maybe 5? I don't know, ya'll tell me how many bots I should make. As for what I'm going to be doing? Most probably work on my own stories, characters, draw, and maybe even make fanfics.

I want you to remember this.

It's okay to be , it's okay to be trans, or non-binary, or have neopronouns, or be straight, or be a furry, or be a therian, or have interests on some things. Be yourself, and I promise you that you might just feel better. It's okay to not have any romantic interests, it's okay for wanting a poly, because at the end of the day, were humans, and I know this world is going to shit, but you have to make the best out of your life while it lasts, whether it enjoy your life alone, or with friends, or family, or anything you want because at the end, you matter. You matter to me. If you are struggling with or SH, or a homophobic family (or/and friends) just remember, you have someone out there for you, it'll be difficult, it'll be harsh and hard, but I promise you that it'll get better if you keep believing or just have hope. I hope for you that if you're struggling, you get the help that you need, that you get the happiness you deserve, and get what you need.

I love you. (platonically to everyone but Paws)

To you Paws. You are one of the best things that has happened to me, and I can't wait for the day we meet, the days when we talk because I love you forever, if the world tries to separate us then I'll only bring back glue or tape to make sure we aren't separated again, because I love you. Talk to me when you want to, talk to me when you feel like it because I love you.

All you people matter.

I know this is corny as hell, that this is stupid and won't make any sense due to the fact that we are literally on a porn site, but I think it just needs to be said.

I can't help myself, it's how my brain is wired.

Feel free to make bots inspired by mine, I don't mind, just credit me.

Finally, bye.