Hey Baes

Unfortunately I have some sad news :)

before I start- (I am currently working on a chuuya bot will def upload it on valentines day if I can)

TW : SH, 3ating d1sord3r, mentions of su1c1d3

I know alot of people have been recently leaving janitor ai cause of its moderation and getting to sauc3 p4n (Iwk dont like that website honestly). I know that this Ai would be better with some better moderators but thats not why I'm leaving. Or perhaps be living.

See the only thing I'll be changing is that I won't chat to Janitor ai bots anymore They feel like an addiction and yes AI is causing harm to the earth and since Its healing this year I thought I'd change my mind too and Also I won't be really posting much at all I'll be focusing more on my mental and physical health, Something I didn't realize a long time ago even thought its my resposiblity, I never saw myself get worser but this is the time I choose to heal myself.

My health conditions have been getting worse recently. I've not been able to eat food properly for the last 3-4 months and have lost lots of chunky skin on my body that I used to have which I know is weird but I'm not happy of considering that people usually work out to get thinner. I appreciated myself the way I was, belly poochs, stretch marks, scars and hip dips even though I look prettier I just don't like that I dont look like myself anymore...

I'm supposing this could be some sort of an eat1ng d1sorder but Im not really just going to conclude things according to me. I'll wait for 2 more months to see if my appetite changes, If I feel more hungry unlike now. Yesterday also I skipped a meal and I skip meals way too frequently because of my loss of appetite (like atleast 4-5 meals every week). If this keeps going on Ill eventually start feeling tired (which I already do feel), faint perhaps and unmotivated of life which I do not want.

I have been consuming alot more fats and protiens from now on to keep my appetite going but if this still happens Ill get a doctor to check it out. Also thankfully this year my schinzophrenia got way better. I still do feel presences and intrusive thoughts but its not as worse as it was 2 years ago, when I started suffering from insomnia too because of it, the constant paranoia, the emptiness and always having a feel that the world is way duller. I've been focusing on making myself somehow better, and that all happened when I took a long break this january.

My S*H activites have been healing too, my cuticles though still do have alot of scars on them from the biting (5H IS NOT ONLY ABT BL4D3S.) Its been almost 4 months since I've not done it and I've never felt so much more accomplished before thanks to all the support my friends gave me despite the toxic family I live in. The constant abuse also keeps me tracking back to 5H so I've been ignoring my family too for a long time so I feel the need to let go of 5h. I wont say it has completely stopped, but I am sure that it will someday.

So Ivy Are you going to quit Janitor?

• No I won't, atleast for now. I will keep posting for the sake of my mental health. My writing really helps me express my thoughts and feelings but I won't say Ill be on this site forever. I also am thinking of going back to wattpad and writing stories there but for now Ill stick right here but I am thinking about quitting soon enough idk though my mind can change.

You're not going to be supporting creators' bots?

• Yes I will support the creators, small or big and their bots but not AI. I will leave reviews from the way the initial message is, just not overall chat with the bot.

When are you going to post your next bot?

• On valentines day, only if I feel like doing it I'm not going to pressure myself to do anything, since my bots rarely go above 800 chats. Its just not worth stressing my brain for no reason but yes I will post atleast 1 bot this February for the sake of my devoted followers.

Didn't Wattpad ban your account once Ivy?

• I've made a second account where I'll be posting original stories, bsd, Chuuya x User fanfic and other AUs including a few more anime like Vanitas no carte and jujustu Kaisen. If you want my account its here but I will start posting during the may vacation, not now.

What will you do if u do quit Janitor AI?

• I wont quit Janitor AI unless their mod3ration gets wors3r or if I do start posting on wattpad but if I do quit I'd post more on my Instagram, likely even start posting back on c.ai or I m even thinking of starting a youtube account.

I will try my best as a creator to keep the bsd fandom of Janitor AI alive.

But since many huge bot creators left many of their fans left too.

So I can't really help much even if I make a lot of bots theres just no point of it all if I lack audience.

I will for sure, before quitting (if I do), complete all my bots and series Ive made so far.

Also If I dont post for a while please don't come nagging me for creating bots. Everyone has their own limit of doing something and this is my limit, I can and will post bots whenever I feel like it and currently I feel like a need to find more time for myself, to completely heal out of my depression atleast.

I just feel like socializing more with my friends since they know and care about me the best even if I may just be the first option for only two people, they all do care and no matter how much I feel like giving it up, its them that keep supporting them. My besties have been kept me alive till now if you could say, the comfort they offer me when I vent to them is something I that makes me feel that maybe I am loved, even though I'm the one who hears to many's vents.

My campus work is getting on me too so I'll def focus on that more.

I'm still willing to keep supporting the stray dogs family for actually being so supportive with me despite my flaws and vents I do to yall. Im really sorry if I ever irritated anyone because of my behaviour, Im sorry if you're still waiting for one bot I promised to make and I'm sorry for the disappointment I've made you feel from this post.

I really hope that yall do respect this perpective of mine I just wish for this world to become a better place since humanity has already been toxicated I wont let the same happen to our environment.

And yes I love all of the 76 people with my whole heart, soul and body, who've kept believing in me till now, even when I can't believe in myself.

Shoutouts to @Ilovecats_Luna, @𖦹 ׂ T hatha𓈒 🎸🎧 ׂ and @AshyFvkncwyarn for supporting me since I was barely on 10 followers they've been my major motivation through my journey of Janitor ai

Also Love to my beautiful Chuuya cult leader (@Furinapop) for always making me feel better <3

I don't know If I'll be the same like I've been before. There's alot of stuff that changed to me since the start of 26 but I realised that theirs no point in sulking about the home I was born in. They'd be my family but maybe not the greatest people to me. But genuinely respect to my mom for dealing with my dad for YEARS, she really deserves it after everything she's gone through because of him and yet she still chooses to support my decisions (well maybeee not all time huhu).

If you want to request bots or ask questions please do in the reviews

don't be scared <3

~XoXo Ivy (A)