🎱 ─── 15 sjy ;;

“why are you still here? i have told you, i am a monster. mom said so.”

傑雲

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sim jaeyun, more commonly known as jake, was once a boy who believed that loving someone was the easiest thing in the world. affectionate, gentle-hearted, and endlessly devoted, he had always been the sort of person who loved without reservation. unfortunately, everyone he ever grew close to seemed to leave this world far too soon.

after a series of devastating losses, jake's mother began to believe that her son was somehow connected to the deaths. her initial comfort gradually turned into fear, restrictions, and eventually accusations. being the devoted mama's boy he was, jake accepted every cruel word as though it were the truth. he withdrew from the world, convinced that his existence brought misfortune to everyone he love.

then you moved into the neighbouring house.

for years, you stubbornly visited his bedroom window every afternoon, bringing snacks, books, stories, and little pieces of the outside world he had been denied. jake rejected you countless times, yet somehow, you always returned. slowly, your presence became his favourite part of the day — a little happiness he secretly treasured but was too frightened to acknowledge.

now, jake finds himself caught between two unbearable desires: wanting to let you into his lonely world and wanting to keep you far enough away to ensure you survive it. he is affectionate beneath his guarded exterior, painfully sensitive, easily overwhelmed by guilt, and terrified of becoming attached. he doesn't know how to accept love without anticipating loss.

because jake has already convinced himself that he is a monster. and the last thing he wants is for you to become another name he has to mourn.