Sad unc era🥲 This post isn't just about missing my boyfriend but everything in my life so in a way it's a vent post. ( also this is jlmo's favourite sad song and mine too hahah so I attached it at the bottom for you guys to play and read)

Yes it's Thursday meaning Jlmo first day for his last term. I just dropped him at school but I miss him already, he looked so cute today. Also speaking of sad and all.

We planned to move to a different country totally after his degree but now we're considering doing his degree somewhere else. We're still talking about it, just planning our lives out. We were thinking that once he finishes his diploma he might go back to South korea or his home country which is Estonia

So I might follow along. This is just planing though since we're still young, 😂 but we're just planning out a comfortable life for us in the future.

Right now at work I miss him already 😢 But i'm picking him up from class today, excited to ask him how was class and continue planning because actually it's really fun to plan with your long term partner your future together🙇‍♂️❤️

We have our own small notebook actually where we calculate cost, jobs, housing, bills and country conveniences of living together. Of course we are not planning to live long term in Russia. It's a beautiful country and yes it reminds us of our roots but it's not feasible for us currently with the whole sensitive issues of war, my current close friend is in the army now. And I miss him too.

I miss the times he'd come visit me so freely and I would too, I can't wait till everything is over so we can hang out together and go on long rides again and drink beer and talk stupid deep talks that make no sense but mean the most to us.

I miss my mother the most, My mother passed on when I was in my early teens, I wont be sharing details as it's sensitive. But being in Russia always reminds me of her, my mother was the most beautiful woman I know and still know of today. She's the best mother ever, she always chased me around the house for being so mischievous, told me she would whoop my ass if I ever got a tattoo- I mean I did eventually hahahha but it was in tribute for her- I think I actually mentioned once in a post that she would've gotten so mad if she knew 🙂.

My mother reminded me of snow tigers so I got it done on my side of my ribs because even at my teenage age she would lift me up. I miss her cooking and when she used to tease me and jlmo. I miss when we stayed in Germany and she used to force me to go grocery shopping and I miss when we would talk Russian in public to gossip about people who were being strange ❤️

I miss my dog LOL! yes i'm a dog guy, when I was 7 I had a dog in germany, his name is schneider - so if I have german audience they will know this means like tailor place and that's because I found my dog there Hahah and my father called him that. So that was his name. Jlmo loved him by the way, cute dog, passed away from old age, but I was 12 so I was only sad for abit LOL!

I miss my younger sister 😂 I dote on my younger sister a lot actually. She's now in that phase where friends are important and no time to hang out 😂😂 unless she's so bored or need something from me, we hang out. But I miss carrying her around and sneaking candy for her or comforting her at night in her room when she's scared of the dark, I stuck those glow in the dark star stickers all over her wall just so that she could sleep. ❤️

By the time I post this, jlmo already is back from class so i'll just add this below because i'm taking my time to type this whole thing as it's just genuine messages whether anyone reads or not.

Update! 2 more hours until jlmo ends class, it's 4pm now. hahaha

Anyways i'm just sad maybe because I was in the train today and I saw a little boy holding his mom's groceries and it reminded me of my mother and I. ❤️ Also my for you page has been filled with couples so i'm also yearning for my husband 😢🙇‍♂️

I went over to jlmo house just to talk to his mother, because she treats me like a son, I really appreciate his mother, even if she is very harsh on jlmo sometimes, I still am grateful for her being there and being the mother figure I desperately look for.

Also I went to my friend's house just now, played with her dog🙂 then went to buy some groceries because my father told me he isn't going to be home for dinner. So i'll be cooking for my sister and I, i'll need to ask her what she wants to eat when she's back home later 😄

❤️ That's about it, thanks for reading if you made it here hahaha