Growth

Hitting 100 followers made me worry.

I'm worried that if I grow too big, I will lose what's important, my tight knit community.

I'm worried that if I grow too big, my bot style will change to match the trends, or become one of those massive lore heavy bots, as the public demands.

I'm worried that if I grow too big, the pressure on me will be too large, and I'll break. I hate being pressured.

But then, at 2:00am on a night that is 21°C, I realised how foolish these worries are.

If I become famous, it is for the bots I create. If it is for the bots I create, I can create whatever I want. And losing my tight knit community? I will ALWAYS remember those who stood out to me.

Those include my TOP 3 UNDISPUTED GOATS: No_way who arrived on my FIRST BOT! Rotting.Corpse who came shortly after at Spider Mommy I'm pretty sure. And finally, Sleep11, who arrived majestically at the ocean, talking bout some "name your next bot _lourish".

However, there are also two of you I also remember, as you stood out to me. Kiryu.the.Kazuma and Klarm. I hope you're both still out there!

In the words of Rotting.Corpse, "Pretty girls never die!" (This quote doesn't fit here I'm just shouting out her bot indirectly which you should go find on her page)

And on being pressured? Dude I'd probably procrastinate no matter how big I am! Anyone pressuring me to release is just words on a screen!

TLDR: I WAS WORRIED ABOUT FAME, BUT JUST WENT "nah that" AND I'M GOING TO JUST DO MY THING. ALSO, MY GOATS NO_WAY ROTTING.CORPSE AND SLEEP11 AND CO (Kiryu.the.Kazuma and Klarm)