TW FOR S#LF HARM AND S#ICIDAL THOUGHTS AND HOMOPHOBIA/TRANSPHOBIA

By the way im sorry for venting on this site I just want to express my feelings somewhere

Ignore the shitty PFP art. It’s late about 1 AM and I don’t have time.

Anyway, I needed to vent about how I feel about myself

I think im Disgusting. I deserve to die. I keep cutting myself and I don’t know why, it feels so good to just take out anger on myself, I hate myself for it, but I love when that blade touches my skin or when I bash my head against the wall, I think I deserve it

I have a problem. I don’t know who I am ??? I feel like a women the I feel like a man then I want to change my name then I want to change my sexuality then I want to change my gender and then I want to change characters that I kin

my parents (I don’t see them much as I am an adult) are extremely homophobic and transphobic, they wouldnt accept me if I came out to them. They used to discourage me and now it leads to this fucking blade touching my skin. I’m so sorry if this reaches the wrong audience please don’t hate me I can’t take it anymore too many people hate me and i think im a bad person genuinely, I shouldnt even be venting on this site what am I even fucking doing