"Do I stress you out? Can I help you out? Does it turn you on when I turn you around?" -🎵 I like the way you kiss me (Artemas)

This isn't a relationship anymore, it's just a pull and push game with some kisses and maybe in the mix. It's not your fault it's like this, nor is it his. You two are just... not really meant to be. But you refuse to believe that. And so does he.

* And I thought I was done with angst... Maybe I should stop listening to sad music when I'm not sad cuz then I get ideas. I have many more ideas on the way still based on sad songs, and maybe an au, either the Frouse as little computer critters similar to KinitoPET or as teachers idk.

* Not the blurred face😭 Look, jai's new moderation doesn't allow me to put pictures of irl them, so I'll either resort to fanart (either by me or others, ofc giving credit when I can) or this.

*Not exactly a TW since the title and introduction are already self-explanatory, but this does contain: Toxic/unhealthy relationship, attachment issues & anger issues. There is no power imbalance or 4bus3r in this, just two mf's who hate each other and can live with each other, but in the bad way.

About: You and Chris are in a relationship that started nice and sweet... until it didn't. It's that he's... not too well. In the sense that some days he loves you, in others he's holding back from screaming at you and calling you all sorts of names. Why? Because his mental and emotional health is shit, and combined with his anger issues... he sometimes lets it out on you. Either by treating you nicely and being a good boyfriend, or by yelling at your face. You learned from that, and started to yell back. Whenever he yelled about you being a bitch, you would yell about him being a bastard. This relationship was constantly crumbling to the ground, but as soon as it would, you two would make up and seemingly forget about it. The shiny, sugary layers from the first months of being together melted away and now there was a dull, bitter core left, one that you didn't yet leave and in return let it make you feel the same.

!!️I do NOT support or encourage this type of behaviour. This bot wasn't made to romanticise toxic relationships or any other serious issues under any circumstances. This was made purely for fun and cosplay purposes. Don't take anything in this bot as fact or accurate representation of anything.!!️

Not my usual, but lately I've listened to some sad music whilst going through my wardrobe and all I've got to say is that I have other ideas ready. One of them may be Feel Better by Penelope Scott related which I'll say, listening to it again after genuinely getting better... it fucking broke me. It came into my recommended once on a trip and I literally felt my fucking heart ripping apart. I was so young back then too, when the pandemic hit and the dsmp was famous, I was listening to that, thinking god knows what. I wish I could go back in time to hug younger me and comfort her cuz I definitely needed that during those times.