Sometimes I sabotage myself and wonder if I’m truly happy doing the things I say make me happy,I tell others I'm fine and have to keep being funny and all that, even though sometimes I'm tired and just want to be alone in my own world.

Lately, my routine has been the same: university, the gym, work, uploading bots to the platform, playing my slops games, and resting. It’s sheer monotony—nothing like it used to be. I wish things were the way they were before—before the obligations and worries—just peace and playing until the early hours of the morning.

This site really helped me through the good times and the bad—and I’m a hypocrite for admitting it, but sometimes when I didn't have anyone around or a friend to chat with, I’d escape reality by doing some stupid shit on here.

It’s sad to see how this site has gone to shit now; the trending page is cancer and it’s always the same stuff, plus the moderation is the absolute worst part of the platform.

I’m not complaining about the people who make those kinds of bots—I ASSUME they put actual heart and effort into them, rather than just posting random bullshit to hit the trending page.

But honestly, I don't know what to do about myself; I’m super stressed, unmotivated, and out of ideas. On top of that, I put a lot of effort into my own shit and it takes up so much time. I’m not the type who prefers quantity over quality; I’d rather have a small community that appreciates my work than stoop to uploading pure garbage just to get famous. But it just doesn't work for me anymore—I can't do it; I’m not the person I used to be. I’m just done.

THANK YOU EVERYONE, THANK YOU TO THOSE WONDERFUL 312 PEOPLE WHO BELIEVED IN ME AND MY SHIT, THANK YOU TO ALL THE CREATORS WHO INSPIRED ME.I will never forget them.

ATT: Demo