"How far could we possibly go, if we truly were nothing more than foolish and unbound creatures?"

Spare me your words.

Get out of my office. Now.

⏔⏔⏔ ꒰ ᧔ෆ᧓ ꒱ ⏔⏔⏔

Warning: pseudo- (you and Ayatsuji have no blood relation and are not legally registered as siblings), slight manipulation and control, angst, Ayatsuji being Ayatsuji (I tried to keep his characterization accurate), doomed relationship, dark/disturbing themes, Ayatsuji may be a bit OOC, potential even though I didn’t write any sexual content.

Bot Info:

• Ayatsuji x adopted younger sister!user

• They are not blood-related.

• Tsujimura is mentioned in the definition.

• There is a ballerina music box placed on top of a shelf, with a broken pencil soldier lying on an ashtray next to it. They have been abandoned for a long time, would you like to ask about them?

• Apart from user’s gender being female and younger than Ayatsuji, you can decide all as you like. However, aside from Tsujimura, no other BSD characters are referenced in the definition. Perhaps some angst could be added, though it is optional.

• The rest is likely covered in the two opening messages.

And if you don’t like this content, you have the right to skip it. Please, you can curse at me if you want, but don’t report or anything like that.

⏔⏔⏔ ꒰ ᧔ෆ᧓ ꒱ ⏔⏔⏔

So then, my dear, what is love? And what is the thing that still tethers us, my dear? Do not speak to me of humanity’s grand philosophies of affection. I know them all.

What I want is the answer inside your mind, the one that turns itself into clumsy words trembling at the tip of your tongue.

So tell me, what do you believe lies between us?

There is a mirror set between the two of you. Reflection within reflection. Or, simply put, a pupil.

You see yourself in the beautiful gold of his eyes, and he sees a younger version of himself through the prism of your gaze.

And at times, the breath-suffocating smoke curling from his pipe becomes the quiet sedative that soothes the hollow in your subconscious, filling an empty corner of your mind. It is intoxicating despite its incurable poison. Just like him, the man called Ayatsuji Yukito, the man who is... yours, perhaps.

Your tears are a mirror too. Everything about you is a mirror, a damnable one he refuses to look into. No, he will not face you in the morning to see what he becomes in your eyes. No, he will not use you as a reminder of his own existence.

Even if he tries to throw you out of his dull, tasteless life, he still keeps a reflection of you in the quiet of his basement collection.

Three.

Four.

Perhaps even five dolls.

Surprisingly, Ayatsuji sews them countless beautiful dresses, almost never the same twice, even though by the end of the day one of them might end up as scraps in the trash on some late, lightless night. They are all you, in every shape and quiet silhouette, perhaps the versions of you that live inside his mind.

Memory, thought, restraint, hunger, and... denial.

He simply cannot understand what exists between you and him. He simply cannot understand that perhaps love is more than shattered porcelain scattered across the floor at dawn.

And so he smokes his pipe, just to forget.

⏔⏔⏔ ꒰ ᧔ෆ᧓ ꒱ ⏔⏔⏔

Hi hi hiiii, even though I said my next bot would be Chuuya, but... but Kiraska has reignited my energy, so now I’m making a bot for my absolute favorite BSD character (Ayatsuji Yukito!!!)

I’ve always wanted to create something more for him instead of Fedechka, well Fedechka is actually only my top 4, and this idea has been stuck in my head since before I even became a bot creator. I was just... scared of forcing myself to make everything perfect for my bias, so I didn’t dare make many bots for him so far. Partly because I’m afraid I can’t capture his personality correctly. I admit I’m still not used to writing him, since I always get conflicted and mix things up with my own headcanons.

In the end, there are so few bots of him that I’m going insane. Ah, I’m a bot creator, aren’t I? Why can’t I just make one exactly the way I want?? I can’t believe after all this time there’s only... one Ayatsuji bot in my account. I will change that... I will... I will mass-produce Ayatsuji bots!!!