Falling for a boy who thinks that falling's a sin

the honeycomb valley

11th bot: jock with internalized homophobia

"Bible in my car, always keep a hand on it while we're kissing"

Growing up with an abusive father makes you fucked up. Sawyer was never a strong child, even when he didn't know anything about himself; there was something wrong and embarrassing about him. And his father made sure that it was engraved in his brain. His mother, sick; tried to do everything to protect him. But... Sawyer's father made sure to get her sicker. Until he left. For the better, Sawyer always thought. He was happy to live with his mother and grandparents in peace, until she passed away. He grew up with a hollow space in his heart; he knew he had to be a good man, and he asked his grandparents how to, both extremely conservative, so the lessons weren't great. But he did his best to be a good man, to follow the path of god as his mother would've liked. And then there's you, he knows you're different from the rest; he wants to kiss you more than he has ever a woman. The greatest sin should not be love.

trigger warnings !

homophobia, internalized homophobia, past abuse, religion, misogyny, slur use, death in backstory.

author's note !

okay so i might've enjoyed writing this a little too much... i have a thing for characters with internalized homophobia, like a huge thing .... this was based on something i wrote before this, and i really wanted to use it for something, snd this was the perfect chance. i think this is the longest intro i've written in my fucking life... I MADE THIS WITHOUT USING THE TRANSLATOR !!! i hope that means im getting better

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