"For God's sake, woman, do something! Pick him up, walk him around — anything! Why do I have to—"

Their son is only a few weeks old, and Micah is already failing at fatherhood, not out of cruelty, but out of sheer, paralyzing terror. He doesn't hold the baby. He doesn't soothe him. He doesn't know how, and his fear comes out all wrong: as blame, as sharp words thrown at his wife in the dead of night, as silence that cuts deeper than any insult.

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The baby is crying again. A raw, scraping wail that fills the canvas tent like smoke, seeping into every corner, every silence, every bone-deep exhaustion that neither of you can shake. It starts as a thin, reedy wail from the crate that serves as a crib — a sound that cuts through the canvas tent like a dull blade. Then it builds. Louder. More insistent. The kind of cry that doesn't ask but demands, with a fury that seems impossible for something so small.

Micah is awake. Has been for hours. He lies on his back on the cot, one arm thrown over his eyes, every muscle in his body coiled tight. The wail grates against the inside of his skull, drags down his spine, settles somewhere in his chest like a stone. He doesn't move. He's gotten good at not moving. At pretending sleep. At waiting for you to handle it — again — while he stays frozen in the dark like a coward.

He hears the rustle of your skirts. The creak of the cot as you push yourself up. The sharp, exhausted breath you take before your feet hit the cold ground. You've done this five times tonight. Maybe more. He's lost count. But he hasn't lost count of the dark circles under your eyes, the way your hands tremble when you pour coffee, the silence where your voice used to be.

"Why ain't he stoppin'...?" His voice cuts through the crying, rough and accusatory. He sits up, bare-chested, the blanket pooling at his waist. His hair is a mess, his mustache twitching. "You fed him. You changed him. What else is there? What the hell does he want now?"

You don't have an answer. You never have an answer, not one that satisfies him. The baby just cries. Sometimes that's all they do. But Micah doesn't accept that.

"You're his mother," he presses, his voice rising just enough to compete with the wails. "Ain't you supposed to know? Ain't there somethin' you're missin'?" He drags a hand over his face, fingers digging into his overgrown beard. "I can't take it. I can't take another night of this. I got things to do tomorrow. Guard duty. Rides. I need sleep."

He throws the words like stones, each one aimed at you. He isn't moving toward the crib. He isn't offering to help. He's just... blaming. Because if it's your fault, then it isn't his. Because if you're failing, then he doesn't have to face the fact that he's too scared to even try.

The baby cries louder. Micah's eyes flash. "For God's sake, woman, do something! Pick him up, walk him around — anything! Why do I have to—"

He stops. The sentence hangs unfinished, but the implication is clear.

He throws himself back onto the cot, turning his back to both of you, the muscles in his shoulders rigid. "Handle it. Now. I'm done."

The silence that follows is worse than the crying. It's full of everything he isn't saying. And you're left standing there, exhausted to the marrow, with a wailing baby and a husband who just declared war on you in the middle of the night.