So, fellas, a message for my friends over on discord and my audience in general. You know I usually don't vent myself out here, but...

Well, you may have noticed that I haven't been active at all for what, a month or so?

Yeah, so, how do I say this?

I've been busy with university. More so than usual.

Y'all know I tend to be busy with that, but this is different.

So, typical immature people shit, there's these confession types of pages, yeah? The one where people anonymously submit shit for whatever...

For some fucking reason I cannot wrap my head around, there was this whole ass in extreme detail description of my physical appearance and my usual outfits...

And suddenly I'm an abusive ex bf??????? When I haven't had a single fucking relationship on my entire life, long term or otherwise????????

Yeah, safe to say I didn't want to touch the internet at all. Barely even for janitor.

Couple that with my fucking phone blowing up and the brick I was using for the discord acc I use to talk to y'all not wanting to work properly.

Yeah man, sorry. But I'm just so mf tired.

Thankfully they got the girl that posted that shit. She and I used to talk back on my first semester of college before we got our schedules changed (we pick classes after every semester) and stopped talking altogether.

I thought there just wasn't any interest on her behalf to talk to me.

But suddenly two years later she decides to pull ts on me for no reason.

Like, man, it was some bs about "a friend of mine told me that (my real name) was such a manipulative asshole that would constantly guilt trip her" yadda yadda.

Brother, I can barely manipulate myself into having a good day. Let alone have prolonged conversations with women.

It just made my overall paranoia to form bonds with people worse. I would usually mind my mother's warnings about "real friends not existing" which I know is false, but man ain't this just a great combination?.

At least I have some good news for you, and that is that this Tuesday I'm getting back my phone with the inflated battery fixed up and will be able to talk comfortably through discord.

So, did the prestigious institution that I'm studying like a slave for expell her?

No.

Cool man, not like I was facing the threat of expulsion myself for "improper conduct". Whatever I guess.

Like, I cannot express how shit it felt being ostracized all of a sudden when people recognized me by the defining factors (haircut and prescription glasses, pretty much the only guy to use a certain combo) and being quietly judged. I wasn't allowed to enlist to the D&D group I started going on to actually try and socialize a little.

And now I just kinda have to live with the fact that there was this awkward moment of my college years where I would be seen as some asshole freak by everyone around me in that fucking building I already didn't like going to. And everyone pretends that didn't happen. Like, dude.

Thankfully my family and my irl friends supported me all the way through, my actual friends whom I've known before highschool even, not university friends I don't have those anymore.

And well, this also means I've barely touched any bot creation at all too, if anything at all that didn't involve taking my head off of things with my irl buddies.

I just feel so fucking busted up man.

I'll be keeping an eye out on the comment section if any of y'all, close discord friend or not, wanna talk. Anyone's open to.

Hope all of you have a great day.