hi guys

sorry about the fluctuating posts and all

so i guess i decided not to ? kind of mostly because i just dont know how and when and i dont want my friends to miss me

i just

i really really hate my life right now.

to tuna, my best friend who was there for me at my lowest

i hope you don't see this tuna, but at the same time, i hope you see this and i hope it affects you and i hope with all my heart that you can please just spare one of your busy minutes to just

talk to me.

please.

i want you to know that what i do to myself isn't because of you and it isn't because i hate you its just because i hate myself and i don't know what to do. i hope you know that in the future, what i do is not your fault. please don't blame yourself for what i do. please dont turn out like me and please stay the same because i need you and i hope you know that i do. i want you to read this because i need you to know that i need you so much. and i may just need time to myself too and thats okay and if i do i want you to at least be there to be my friend when i learn how to love myself. and if you cant thats okay too. ill miss you. just like how i miss you now.

to my fans that probably dont exist

if you even care, i want you to know that if i leave this account, if i stop making bots, itll be for the better. ill probably get better. ill fix myself and ill get better. i dont know what i'll do with myself and i dont know what ill do to this account and i dont know if youll even ever hear from me again. but if you do, its not going to be the same me you know now. i just want you to try to think that im not a real person and that im just someone out there who is happy. and if you dont think about me, good. its for the better.

i will miss this account if i do abandon it. ill try to put my energy into something useful. ill try to think of something else. ill try to get better. dont miss me and dont think about me.

-dave, or as you know, nobi.