Break

Hey, just wanted to say I’m gonna be stepping away for a little while. I finally wrapped up my first year—so I guess that makes me a sophomore now, huh? Feels weird to say that out loud. It’s been a lot, honestly. Like, more than I thought it would be. School was heavy, life was heavier, and I think I hit a point where I just need to slow down. My boyfriend’s been telling me I should get out more, do something that’s not just hiding out in the dorm or drowning in stress. And... he’s right. I’ve been stuck in my own head too much lately.

So I’m trying to take a step back and figure myself out a bit—who I am outside of the constant pressure, the expectations, and all that depressing shit I’ve just kind of buried along the way. I probably just need space to breathe, to feel okay again. I don’t even know exactly what I’m looking for, but I know I’m tired of pretending like I’m fine when I’m not. So yeah, I’ll be away for a while. Still around, just... not all there, if that makes sense.

But yeah... even with all the stuff I’m trying to sort through, I’ve been spending more time with my boyfriend lately, and it’s been helping. Pride’s happening, and while we’re not doing anything super wild or out there, it’s still been nice—just the two of us, being ourselves without feeling like we have to hide.

It’s kinda quiet, honestly. We’ve just been walking around, talking, doing small things that make us feel okay. I’m still not totally sure where my head’s at with everything, but having him there while I figure it out makes it a little easier. We’re just taking it day by day, and for now, that feels like enough.